ariana grande imagines

we'll be okay

Touring is a beautiful thing.

I get to see my fans, my best friends.

I always cherish the time that I spend with them. It's always a beautiful thing.

I leave in one day.

Though tour is amazing, leaving home on the other hand sucks.

it actually sucks.

I have to leave my family, my dogs, and my friends behind. Even though they come to some of my shows, they can't come to them all. I am forever grateful for the ones they do support me at though.

The hardest part of leaving home was leaving y/n.

The absolute love of my life. I have no idea where I'd be without her.

She has supported me through the most awful times in my life, to the best.

I knew I would barely survive this tour without her.

I begged her to come on this tour with me. Her schedule is packed. I know she couldn't join me, but I still asked. I would still continue to ask because it gave me hope that the next time I would ask she would just say yes.

But she can't.

It breaks my heart knowing I'll have to go so long without her, but I have to accept it.

I can't let her know how much it hurts. If I do, it'll break her.

I've been at home all day, waiting for her to come home from work.

I leave tomorrow morning.
This would be my last night with her for a long time.

I knew that today was gonna be hard the minute it started.

This morning I heard her running around getting ready for work. I pretended to be asleep.

When she finished getting ready, I heard her bring the chair in our bedroom near my side of the bed.

I figured that she just stayed there, because I felt her staring at me, watching me sleep.

I then started to hear sniffles, those sniffles led to quiet sobs.

I wanted more than anything to just jump into her arms. But I didn't.

Because I knew I wouldn't be able to let her go.

I haven't done anything productive today, I couldn't bring myself to. All I did was stay in bed and watch tv.

It's about 5pm at the moment and I haven't eaten all day. If y/n knew about that, she'd be so upset.

She should be home in a few minutes.

I stayed in bed those last few minutes, staring at the tv that was now off.

I wanted to isolate myself from her when she got here, to make saying goodbye easier, but I knew that I wouldn't be able to go through with it.

I'm broken out of my thoughts when I heard all of the dogs barking at the front door opening.

I heard her greeting the dogs, she loved them just as much as I did.

I heard her making her way up the stairs. The second I saw her, I ran.

I ran into her and jumped into her arms.

My legs were around her waist with my arms around her neck. She stumbled back a little bit, not expecting what I just did.

She placed her head in my neck and left soft kisses.

She moved and sat on our bed with me still in her arms for I don't know how long.

We just sat there and enjoyed each other's presence.

Until she broke the silence.

"How was your day today? Did you do anything interesting?" She asks me.

"It was okay," lie. "I took a couple business calls today actually." Another lie.

"Good for you love. Did they go well?"

"Are you sure you can't come with me?" The question caught her off guard. This is the millionth time I've asked this question and the millionth time I'm gonna get the same answer. I just need to know. This is the last time I'll be able to know for sure.

She stared at me for a minute before answering.

"Ariana..." She sat both of us up in the bed. I was sitting across from her. My legs and her legs were crossed. She took my hands and held them in hers, she placed them in her lap.

"I've told you this so many times baby, but I can't. I want to so badly, but I can't. I've asked my boss so many times to give me at least a little time off to join you but she can't give me that time. I'm so so sorry."

I was on the verge of tears. The answer she just gave me was the final one. She isn't gonna be able to come with me. Even though I've heard this answer every time I asked, it's for real now.

"Ari, you know I'm gonna visit you as much as I can. We're gonna talk every single day. It'll be like we never even left each other."

"Yeah except for the fact that when I actually wanna be with you, you won't be there" I mumbled.

"I know my love, I'm so sorry." She whispered, running her fingers through my hair as my head laid on her chest.

"Don't apologize baby girl, I know you did everything you could to try and be able to come with me. It's okay, I understand." I didn't want her to feel sorry about this. She doesn't deserve that.

"We're gonna be alright, right y/n?" I asked, my voice shaky.

"Of course baby girl, you have absolutely nothing to worry about." She said as she left a bunch of kisses on my forehead.

"Can we watch a movie or something please? I don't wanna focus on tomorrow right now. I just wanna be here with you."

"Of course, angel." Y/n said. With that, she got up from our bed and put it in a dvd. She chose Harry Potter, and I was perfectly okay with that.

She came back to the bed and laid down. I placed my head on her chest and cuddled into her. Throughout the movie she ran her fingers through my hair and kissed my head occasionally.

Towards the end of it, she grabbed my face and held it in her hands, forcing me to look into her eyes.

She crashed her lips to mine, and at that moment I knew,

Everything was gonna be okay.

a/n: i think i wanna make a part 2 to this, like where they reunite after the tour. but i don't know.