Not in that Way (Ereri)

Chapter 4

Thought of this chapter listening to this song :)

Eren stared down at Levi's eyes, one hand on the smaller males waist and the other clutching his smaller hand in his own. Oceanic eyes met steel grey, neither of them wanting to look away. Both were dressed in suits. Eren with a navy jacket and a white shirt underneath. His collar untucked and the top few buttons undone, giving him a sort of bad boy look. While Levi. Small, Beautiful Levi, wore compeltely black. The only thing that he was wearing that was not black, was the cravat. He was gorgeous. Eren's cheeks turned red and ached from the large smile he wore.

Eren couldn't hide the joy he felt in that moment.

He felt complete.

They were alone, dancing under stars, music playing softly in the background as they stared at eachother as if nothing else existed in the world. In this moment they were one.

The song was slow. No actual beat, but rather jazz. It was soft and peaceful. Eren didn't want this to stop. He wanted this song to last forever so that he would never have to separate from the other.

His prayers clearly weren't heard as the song faded until it came to a stop. Leaving them both continuing to stare at eachother  in silence. Eren so badly wanted to tug the other closer, presses his lips against the Levi's soft, pink ones. The desperation Eren felt in that moment sky rockets as the other smiled up at him. His eyes sparkling in the moonlight, pale skin glowing. He was perfect.

As if to ruin the moment, music began again, but this time it was upbeat, fast and Levi pulled away.

Distressed at the sudden space, beginning to think Levi was going to leave him. He reached forward and once again grabbed his hand. His large, clammy hand compeltely covered Levi's.

To his surprise. Instead of tugging away once again, Levi manoeuvred their hands so that their hands were clasping eachothers. Then he continued to jump around, 'dancing' to the music.

Eren was relieved.

He had begun to think that Levi pulled away because he was done with hin. Done with dancing with him. But instead, he still wanted to dance. He wasn't sick of Eren. He wanted to dance with Eren. The hope in him bloomed again as he allowed himself to smile, bouncing to the beat as Levi laughed loudly, cheeks flushed from the jumping. His exhaustion did not stop him as he pulled Eren around.

One mis-step from Eren had both of them tumbling to the ground, their hands tightening on instinct. Eren landed on his back with a grunt, though not soon after, another pained groan left his lips as another body fell on top of his. So he laid there, eyes shut as the ache began to disappear.

Opening his eyes, he blinked as eyes stared down back at him. In the moonlight, Levi's eyes seemed to be a grayish baby blue. His eyelashes were long and framed his eyes beautifully. His underbags were not as prominent as they usually were, beginning to fade.

At this proximity, it also looked as if flicks freckles decorated the flushed skin of his cheeks, though it could have been the light playing tricks on him. He was stunning. His beauty captivating Eren in a way that he wished would never end.

Staring down at him, Levi's lips thinned out, dimples showing as he forced away a smile. He failed. A large smile broke out on his face as he began to giggle, and soon those giggles turned into full-blown laughter. Eren couldn't stop his own tittering. He couldn't help it. Levi's giggles were contagious.

Laying on the ground, both were laughing. Levi still on Eren's chest while the others hands were floating above the others sides. Wanting to touch but not wanting to make the other uncomfortable as they continued to laugh. As the laughter died down. Both stared at eachother with smiles, splitting their cheeks. Soft giggled left Levi every so often and Eren cherished every. Single. Sound. Once again. Everything was quiet. The music was blocked out as all that mattered in that moment was eachother.

Erens eyes slowly trailed down to Levi's lips, before once again raising to make contact with Levi's eyes. Only to see the other staring down at his own lips.

Hesitating for only seconds, Eren leant forward with a shakey breath, only seeing Levi do the same. Once their lips touched, Eren thought that fireworks would appear. That warmth would erupt and that their kiss would the greatest thing. It wasnt. Instead, it was cold, hard, painful. Eren didn't like it. So he pulled back, away from the kiss and away from Levi.

That kiss contained no love.

Levi could only stare at the other in disgust, face churning as he stood abruptly. He wiped his lips on the sleeve of his forearm, seemingly grossed out by the thought of their kiss.

"What the fuck?! You actually thought I wanted to kiss you? You're revolting!" He gagged and Eren wanted to curl up and break down. Tears formed in his eyes as he looked to the side in embarrassment. He had never hated himself more. "Why would I want to kiss you when I have Erwin? You're nothing Eren." The words were said with little emotion, but they were like a stab to his heart. He'd rather Levi punch him. Hit him. Do anything other than say those words. Those words he couldn't handle.

"Eren." The words were spiteful. Full of so much hate that Eren couldn't bring himself to look up. He couldn't move. Couldn't breath. He felt powerless. He was weak.

"I hate you."

Eren sat up with a broken cry, hands shaking as he stared around his room, eyes wide and filled with so much fear. His body was trembling uncontrollably. Feeling his stomach churn, he turned and retched into the rubbish bin next to his bed. The bike burning his throat. His breathing was rough and his hans gripped the sheets of his be.he felt disgusting.

The door was opened and there stood a panicked Levi, looking around the room and holding the first thing he could grab on his way to Eren's room, which was surprisingly a bat. Though, when seeing Eren's disheveled form, the bat dropped to the ground with a thumb as he ran forward. In seconds he was on the bed and pulling Erens broken from into a hug.

Eren cried. He cited and cried. His sobbing didnt stop and Levi was there through all of it, muttering comforting words. His hands running through Eren's hair.

As his wails began to die down, Eren looked up at Levi who stared down at him in worry. He must have looked hideous. Levi had told him multiple times his crying face wasn't the prettiest.

"A bad dream." Eren answered, even though Levi hadn't asked anything. With a frown, Levi pushed the other down and slipped under the blanket next to him. The big wasnt the largest, but they made do with it. It wasnt the first time they had shared a bed together. With a sniffle, Eren snuggled closer and closed his head, breathing started to calm and the shaking was beginning to slow.

"I got you." At those words, Eren finally allowed sleep to take over as Levi blinked down at him, a soft smile slipping onto his face. He kissed the others forehead and closed his own eyes.

So, when I started this story, I didn't want it super long. It was only a short story to past the time. Every chapter left had already been planned out so theres about 5 chapters after this one till the story is finished!