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Entry 6

I'm just going to use this to vent because I know no one reads this shit anymore. Well, no one ever did, so regardless it doesn't matter. I'm still in love with a certain girl, she thinks of me as her best friend now and refuses to see me as anything else. I'm in a weird situation where some nights I hang out with her and we sleep in the same bed at night. Just sleep, I can't even put an arm around her without her waking up and moving away. And when she's awake...I'm afraid to try. There are many many times where the mood is straight out of a romance film but she just isn't at all interested. And it hurts. A lot. No matter what I do I can't seem to forget the days we used to have, years ago when I could hold her in my arms and I had thought she would be mine. I was never so wrong. She chose another over me, left me in the dirt like I was trash she just discarded. I try to hide it but I'm still in pain to this day...but I can't stay away from her, because that hurts even worse. I don't know what to do anymore, I'm just slowly driving myself insane until I no longer feel.