Tom holland or Shawn mendes? X READER

Train

Weeks went by I'm still miserable Shawn been by my side since he told me and never left me alone I really appreciate him for that.

"Shawn I'm fine really get some rest" I said
"I won't leave you" he said

"Shawn?" I said
"yea" he replied
"you told me I should go out right?" I asked
"yes and you never did" he replied

"so um I want to go out" I said
"really? Y/n that's great" he smiled
"alone" I said
"I'm not sure about that" he said
"believe me Shawn I really do need to be alone" I said. I want to go out and be alone with my thoughts

After many tries he finally said yes I decided I will take the train and go to my grandpa's farm we always went thier in holidays and stuff and I needed to be there

I got in the train it was full but there were two free seats so I sat on the window seat hoping no one sites  next to me. After a while a guy sat next to me I quickly wiped my tears gave him a small smile and looked at the view. After a while he started talking

"hey" guy said
"um hey" I replied with crocked voice from crying
"are you alright?" He asked with a British accent I just nodded
"is it about a bad boy? They are not worth it" he said as I was thinking why he was talking to me but I was happy how carrying he was I shake my head as in no

"oh then a best friend?" He asked again
"I wish" I replied with a small smile. I was shook why he is carrying about me so I decided to talk, he sounds like a good guy I started robbing my necklace that my grandpa gave me

"it's" tear rolled down my eyes "sorry uh" I said as wiping my tears
"it's okay" he said as he rubbed my back I looked at him "oh sorry" he said as he removed his hand
"no no, it's just I'm really confused why you are carrying about a stranger" I said
"oh okay um well maybe I'm that good of a person" he chuckled and I chuckled back

"um I don't know if you are interesting to hear but-" as I wanted to continue he cut me off saying "oh no go on I wanna listen if you wanna talk"

I nodded and started talking "it's my grandpa" a tear rolled down my eyes "I'm so close with him we always walk together everyday talk about random stuff and grandpa would tell me stories of his life" I smiled as I rememberd him and looked down to my necklace
"oh I'm so sorry" he said as I shake my head as it's okay "I can't tell you that you would forget because you Won't, but he will always be in your heart and if he was here he won't want you to cry and ruin your life he would want you to live your life and probably tell your grandchildren when you get older like he used to tell you his stories" he smiled

"wow um for the first time since he... I never felt this good, thank you" I hugged him
"uh sorry I shouldn't have I'm a stranger after all but I felt really good sitting here with you" I said

"no it's okay I don't see you as a stranger anymore " he chuckled "where are you heading to?" He continued
"my grandpa's farm.."I said with a smile
"are you sure you will feel good there?" He asked
"uh yea I think" I said

"What about you, where are you heading to?" I asked "I have no distinction" he chuckled "why are you on a train tho? I asked

"i like being in a train if I want to think or be alone" he said "oh.. Sorry you probably wanted to be alone and I ruined it" I said "no no it's okay this time I didn't want to be alone I wanted to talk to someone actually"

"oh okay what you wanted to talk about, anything specific?" I asked "no, not really I just wanted to talk" he chuckled "oh okay" I chuckled back

"hey you could come with me to the farm.. If you want of course?" I suggested "oh yea I can! I didn't want you to  go alone, so yep" he said

"why didn't you want me to go alone" I asked confused  "I felt like you can't be alone in your grandpa's farm you may broke down because of your memories or something I don't know" he said with an awkward smile
"that's sweet" I said and he smiled