Life in the Shadows

Chapter 1

In 6th grade, I promised myself I would never drink, become a "bad child", or even date in high school so I could focus on school and be successful in life. Well here I am in 11th grade, and that promise is completely broken.

It's already 7 a.m. and I am slowly getting ready for school. My parents are both at work already (which they won't be back from until maybe midnight) so I have the house to myself this morning. I'm kinda glad that they are gone so much because when they are here, they make it their personal mission to make my life a living hell. Anyways, I decide to use this alone time to write. I love to write, it really helps me distract from my unhealthy thoughts that I seem to be having more often these days.

Sadly now I have to drive to school and spend 8 hours of my day listening to boring teachers and dealing with Lindsey and her little followers.. They just love to bully me any chance they get and I honestly have no idea why.

Lindsey and I actually used to be best friends, until she went complete bitch for no reason. She also turned all my friends on me and really just ruined my life.. She did know a lot about me, so when she bullies me it's really bad because she actually knows how to get to me. She knows many of my deep secrets and she definitely uses them against me. I have to do everything she wants, no matter what, even if it means hurting someone I love.

My best friend, well really, my only friend, is Luke. We have been friends since elementary school and he is probably the only reason why I have stayed clean for so long. And yes, clean as in, I haven't cut in 4. I must say, I'm pretty proud of myself. I started cutting in 9th grade, a few months after Lindsey started bullying me and my life started falling to pieces. When Luke saw my cuts, he actually cried. It was the first time I ever saw him cry..

*flasback*

Luke and I were in my room doing homework and he kept staring at me. "Luke, why are you staring at my wrists?" I finally asked him, worried that he might see something underneath its coverings.

"Why do you always wear those bracelets, Alana?" I shrugged, I didn't want to lie to him, but I didn't want to tell him the truth.. "I-I just like wearing them I guess" "Alana, could you take them off just for a second?" I sighed and after a long silence I slowly took the bracelets off, one by one, revealing the deep scars and newly made marks I tried so hard to hide.

I could see the tears in Luke's eyes as he took my arm and examined each mark on my wrist, and then kissed them. "Alana, why didn't you tell me? Why did you do this?" He barely got these words out before I felt his tears on my arm...

"Promise me you won't give up, please promise me Alana."

"I promise."

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Hi there! So I'm kinda re editing this whole story that I started a while ago because I kinda wanted a story I could apply some of my life story into. So Yeahh. Hope it doesn't turn out too bad.

The first few chapters will mostly be an introduction so it should get better.