Into the Storm

Chapter 6 | Selfish

AR-T

I have her hair wrapped in my fist and her mouth is taking me full in her, with no shit in the world. She rocks her hips against her calves and ankles bent on the floor with her hand between her thighs and her other gripped to my half of my cock. She moans as if I am already inside of her. I try. I really do try not to put my dick inside any of these girls that want to put their mouth on me after a show, but I'm a guy and I wan't to get off all the way by the means and not just a blowjob. It's there, so I do if I want. This blonde was eyeing me from the stage in Bristol. She was the only girl who wasn't fangirling off of my guys and I performing. Drinking her alcoholic beverage and watching me like she was wating for me. No. I couldn't take my eyes off her. Her stare was a certian type of ambition and I knew it. I wasn't going to stop her unless I've got nothing sexual to benefit from her. I know the look and I know the look well, and I wanted her too.
"Can I stay for a while longer?" her lips are swollen from being on me and she's wiping the come off of her face and chest.
No. Fuck no. "No. I've got to get up early, and I'd like to sleep now. You better get on before I can't rest." I don't make eye contact with her and I mind my own business as I get my bed ready. She uses the restroom and then leaves. Moments after the door shuts, I get up and grab my phone from my black sling bag.

1 Missed Call
2 Unread Messeges

All from Jonah. He's picking me up tomorrow with Philly. I text him back and put my phone to the charger and lay back in my hotel bed. I know he has some little thing for Maia, but he won't dare to ever confess. At least, to me. He's afraid of me when it comes to Maia. I know it. Jonah has been my friend since we were small children along with the rest of our clique. I wouldn't dare dream of hurting him. He's a good guy. Somewhere deep down in my selfish little brain, knows that he would be a better match for Maia than I ever could be.
Maia and I met during one of our friend's fraternity parties while we were still in high school. Our friends would fuck around having rap and hip hop flows in cyphers. We still do the same at Storm sometimes and that's what people love about that place. Storm was my platform for a while before a talent scout chatted me up one day about music ventures. That's the point of Maia and Jade's place. If it weren't for her, I wouldn't be traveling and performing the venues that I do. I owe her alot to my fame and I try to stay humble to where I come from. Alot of the group are like my family and I know for a fucking fact that I dissapoint them when it comes to Maia. I know the feeling of that hateful annoyance when it comes to Darren and Jade. I am in definate no better than him, and visa versa. But they have bit more of a difficult history than Maia and I do, and that makes me at least have more of humanity in myself than Darren. I am selfish when it comes to Maia. I was her first at everything. Dating, kissing, boyfriend, sex, and I'd be lying if I said I've never really loved her. She was my first everthing too and I am selfish to let her be happy with anyone else. I always think about how happy she could be, if I let her off with Jonah. It fills me with content thoughts and anger at the same time. What Jonah and the rest of the group don't know, is that I break up with her whenever I have to leave. She's crushed and single when I go and I know Jonah is there for her after I'm gone. It's completely platonic and I am greatful for it because I know he's trying to be a good mate to the both of us. I won't tell him to make a move. Fuck that. If she's mine when I return, I wont deny her. I can't. I love her, still, and the only way I know it will truely be over, is if she is the one who ends us first.
I always wonder if and when Jonah will smart up and make the move while I'm gone. Would he tell me? I know Maia would in a heartbeat. I hate myself for always hurting Maia. She doesn't deserve such a selfish prick like me. I definitely don't deserve her either.
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I was sat at lunch with Jonah and Philly at Behringer. "Hiero is meeting Jade tonight." Jonah setting down his iced tea. I almost choked on my salad and I tossed my fork aside.
"What?" When did?- "Why?" I asked very curiously not taking my eyes off of Jonah. Hiero, has never been around Jade at all since - . He used to do photography and met everyone through their modeling networks. He's taken some quite good and pretty amazing shots of Maia just for the hell of it. I've got a back shot of Maia at Ibiza looking into the ocean. It's a big piece. A black a white shot and hanging over my mantle. Maia only allows it to be hung because it doesn't show her face. Hiero once shot a frame of her smiling at her best. She was in a conversation with Jonah at a party. She wouldn't allow me to hang it over the mantle because it shows her face.
Hiero is model material and if you didn't know any better, you would think he's a snobby model guy who just wants to fuck everything he sees, including guys. But that's not the case. If you were to see Jade and didn't know any better, you would think she's one of those models who only talk to other models and cares nothing but getting photos of herself. Jade is like a sister to me. I can't count the many of the hypocritical times I've felt the need to kick Darren's ass for treating Jade like an asshole. One time, I finally did. No one speaks of it and I won't speak of it now. I can't imagine something like that in my life happening to me.
Jade is finally going to meet Hiero tonight. Somehow, Maia is going to able to get Jade to pick him up. I laughed to myself thinking of their last enounter and none of them may or may not remember. I laughed again to myself with the imagination of their first encounter tonight. Him thinking she's a snob model and her thinking the same about him. Our circle of friends know them both more than anything. Darren's place in this factor was not allowing them to be introduced. Hiero was always at parties that Jade wasn't at and Jade was always at the parties that Hiero wasn't at. Our circle agreed that keeping them apart might be a good idea for a while until the whole Darren factor is completely wiped. He's not going to completely disappear because he is the best but worst friend to have around. Jade gives in to his mental manipulative ways and they are always fucking off and on even though they aren't together like the way they once were. I know Darren will be there tonight, and if Hiero is going to be shadowing Jade, I've got my eye on them. I'm not letting Darren fuck this up for Jade.
Maia has been texting me with worry that Hiero will fall for Jade. "Let it fucking happen." I text her back. We all know that Jade has a guard up because of Darren. I doubt Jade will let that down off the bat when she meets R.T. She barely lets off around Maia and that's practically her sister.
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I was wrong. So fucking wrong about this. There I was in the parking lot, rolling a blunt in Maia's car. I was sat with Maia, Emma, Jade and R.T. I felt a bit bad that I've completely cock-blocked him and Jade. I know I did given the look on Maia's face when Emma and I followed Maia out to the car and she tapped on the driver side window. I shouted to Maia "We can go to my car, babe!" She ignored me. Fucking cock-blocker. I wanted to car fuck Maia a bit after the blunt and sending Emma back inside. Maia has the office, but we've fucked in there one too many times to count. Once we were piled in the car, there was talk about Darren getting jealous. Hiero can hold his own, definitely, but I got R.T.'s back, still.
Something about Jade and Hiero being together tonight is everything that we know is right, but wrong because Hiero is supposed to be working and so is Jade. He's also got some family obligation shit that this could be getting him in trouble with, if his father ever found out. But Hiero doesn't give an absolute shit. Look at the smile on this geezers fucking face.
Hiero and Jade were cute enough to kindly dismiss us from the car and I couldn't agree more. My dick was hard and all I wanted was to take Maia into the office. No one would miss us.
When Maia and I were done from romping in the office, we walked back out to the crowd. Jonah gave a me an odd stare with a thousand words behind it. I immediately thought about the easy girl I took home from the show last night and I looked away from him.
It has to be Maia to end it.
He has no idea the thought plays back at him and refuse to tell him anything until she does.
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The night ends and everyone is emptying out the place. Jade and Maia can't leave until they are the last standing. Philly and Emma stay to help with the rest of the employees for closing. Maia and Jade are plastered. Jade is ordering Hiero around like the fucking Queen of the Damned and he's serving at her command with no problem at all. But he doesn't look the least bit afraid of her like everyone else normally is. Especially when she goes Queen mode. I'm fucking impressed. He really does fucking got this. My guy!
I see Jonah cleaning up some glass some fuck-ball shattered all over the floor and I walk over to him.
"Hey, mate. Can you drive Maia home tonight. To my place?" I ask him as he brooming up the shards into a pan.
He looks up at me with his brows raised "Yeah." He eyes me thinking I'm leaving her to fuck someone, but I'm not. I don't fuck anyone in town that isn't Maia.
"Fuck off, man. I'm only fucking Mai tonight. I want to prepare for her because I know she's so drunk she's going to throw up once we get there and there's not going to be enough time take care of it"- I pause "fuck, mate.. I don't need to explain. I'm not fucking anyone else and can you drop her off at my place?" I ask frustrated and he laughs.
"Yeah, man." He smiles. He's probably beside himself that he gets to spend a moment with her. Asshat.
"Thanks." I say. I turn and walk over to Maia to tell her. I hug her and speak in her ear, letting her know that I'm hard and can't wait to fuck her like a wild fucking animal in my bed when she gets to my house. I tell her about a few more things I know she wants to do. She blushed and I know she's feeling the same. Jonah, is now not a threat.
Hiero - Fucking Hiero Raine Taylor.
He's drunk but not as drunk as Jade. He's holding her up and the pretending has stopped a long time ago. She's ordering him around and I'm fucking amazed at him snapping back at her. They are arguing like an old senior couple. She's stumped and she likes it and she's not going to fucking remember any of this. In her sober right mind, she would have his head already. His whole fucking head and I can't stop laughing about it.