ghost

I tell on myself a lot this days a lot that I even forgot the reality , everything goes slowly with every single pill I swallow to run away from everything can make me feel unsafe I tell myself she's gonna be okay but deep down I know she's gonna burn there's no way , I don't wanna lie it just happens naturally this is hell and I can't stand the fire you put me in ,I wake up after the side effects are gone and I wish if it was a dream so sad that it can't be unreal , without it I still see you I see you and you look so real I see you every time I look at my left hand,every time I hear this song on the radio ,every time something make me laugh, every time someone else trying to know me . enough you've been on my mind for so long now I'm losing it stop tracking me down oh my ghost I don't know why I'm in love I've never hit it this hard but I'm turning to you although I don't wanna be like you I just can imagine me cutting myself to small pieces I can't help I look at the mirror and I can't see my face I see those cuts everywhere but I keep lying yeah I do I tell her that she's not gonna be like you i keep ignoring the fact that you're so loud in my brain all the damn time I keep lying.I've crossed the line I wish if I can give you a credit for ruining my life ,look I don't regret it  and if I could turn back time I would do it all again yeah it's insane but I would love to be the girl you killed to heal I saw it coming anyway don't text it's over I don't need drama anymore you made me can't trust anyone I know I'm living in doubt and it doesn't feel like home so go ahead and I'll slam the door I don't wanna be this completed but you let me thought that heaven was you .I threw the key in a River full of blood where all the broken lovers were drowned deep where there's no hope and you can smell betrayal rocking the place.
"Ghost"