Cry

Chapter 2

It was sophomore year. Fall ball was right around the corner. This time, it being Sadie Hawkins. I thought to myself... Was I going this year? Did I really want to chance some one saying no to me again??

If only it had never happened. My confidence level wouldn't be so low. After a while of thinking I finally decided I would ask Kyle Major. He's nice, funny, cute, smart .. Everything I like in a guy. I stayed up all night Sunday preparing something to ask him with. I came up with donuts and a cute little poster. Only to find out he had a huge crush on a girl named Avery. She's gorgeous, funny, and an amazing actress. Everything I want to be. But I knew that If I was gonna ask him I would have to do it before she did. If I gave up before I asked him, my opportunity would be gone. I would never know if he would have said yes.

So I decided I was going to ask him, before school starts. That way the donuts are fresh. So I got up early Monday morning and went to get donuts.

Once I arrived to school all I could think about was "he's gonna say no. He's not gonna want to go with me."

I had completely convinced myself that there was no way he would even consider going with me.

I ran past him and bolted towards my locker. I stuffed the donuts in there and made my way to 1st hour.

All I could think about on the way to 2nd hour was how stupid I was. I just wanted to stay myself 10 times for being so stupid.

After 2nd hour I grabbed the donuts from my locker and watch as Kyle walks right past me. Donuts in hand I let out a whimper because I don't have the guts to ask someone to a dance.

This time, this time i was gonna do it I run from my 3rd hour to where Kyle is and I go up to him and open the donut box and say "Kyle, do you want to go to fall ball with me?"

Kyles reaction was priceless. He was so surprised and so happy as I stood there with the box open, Kyle said "what?! What?! Oh my god. Yes!" He made me laugh and he was smiling like an idiot, A cute idiot.

I was so happy. We got a picture and he went to lunch. It was amazing... I bug huge relief just came off my shoulders. As I ran to my 4th hour, so i wouldn't be late, I couldn't resist smiling and running to my friends telling them the news.

Throughout the day all I could think about was him, and his reaction, my reaction, the whole thing!

I was so scared to go to my 6th hour though, he was in it. Would I be awkward? Would he be really happy to see me? Or, is he gonna change his mind about going with me?

Thankfully when I got there he wasn't there yet but as the bell rang and everyone was seated, including him, i got very anxious and I felt as is my body had gotten smaller.

Throughout the class we made eye contact but both of us quickly looked away. Then we were put in groups and of course he was put in mine. As our group was working on a problem, he looked at me and said "hey anevay, I just wanted to clear this up, are we going as friends or as dates?"

Oh no, The question. I know the answer, I want to go as dates, I want us to slow dance without it being awkward because we like each other. But I couldn't just say that with everyone around. And I'm glad I hadn't because as I was going to he says before me "because I was kinda talking to this one girl and I don't want to be like 'hey I'm going to the dance with dani' that would be kind of a jerk move. I mean don't get me wrong, I'm excited to go with you, I mean there's a reason I sad yes but I just wanna know if your intention was as friends or...?"

That broke me on the inside, I just wanted to cry and leave the classroom but I couldn't. By that time everyone was looking at us and the only thing I could come up with was "well like you said your talking to someone and it would be kinda mean so i guess friends" everyone turned their heads away and kyle continued by saying "are you sure?" No I wasn't, but I had to be so I wouldn't just pour out the things I felt about him in front of the whole class. "Yeah, it's all good. Haha" I said hoping maybe he would believe me.

After the hour I made my way down the hall to my best friend and I hugged her as hard as I could. I really just wanted to punch something. But, I knew u couldn't, shouldn't.. I knew that this time around I had it better than last year. I have a date this time, and amazing guy who said yes to me. For some reason he wanted to go with me instead of going with avery. So I decided to suck it up and keep your feeling to yourself. Because you have it good, great actually.