Blackbird (Foxy X Mangle)

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After a long night of crying  in Mangle's house I finally went home in the morning ,and of course ,I brough the blanked that Mangle gave me. Even after Mangle told me that I'm not annoying her with my regular crying ,I still think that she sees me as nothing more but a grown baby.

I layed on my bed and signed. Today is Saturday which means I have time to fix* myself and be great worker again. But with my condition that'll be hard. And I can't do it for 2 days. 

I won't be surprised if he fires me.
I am a failure anyways.

I snuggled up with now mine blanked and clossed my eyes. I barerly got any sleep last night ,guess I will sleep all day. 
I tried to fell asleep ,but thoughs of my childhood came back to my mind to traumatize me.

My childhood wasn't good ,at all. I was physically and mentally abused by my parents ,and then bullied at school. I was child mistake ,my parents were planning to abort me but others told them not too. And for some reason they didn't put me for adoption.

My classmates knew about my family issues so they just make it worse ,on purpose. At the age of 13 I started* to have simptoms of depression ,but I never went to therapist to confirm that. I didn't want to look like a wimp. Even though I was..and still am.

At college ,I met her. The love of my life. The girl that tough me that I'm still worthy and there's so much to live for.
Mangle.

Before her ,I always claimed that love is fake and that no one will never love me. But there she is. She became my best friend after being my emotional support. After seeing signs of her liking me back ,I asked her out.

As you can see ,she is still always by my side. She always cancelled her plans just to spend time with me ,which I find for a very kind thing ,even If I always tell her she doesn't have to deprive* herself of everything just to spend time with me ,but she always tells me that its okay.

She is the only person that I can trust.
She is the only person that I love.

After a lot of thinking about my life ,I finally fell asleep.

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''No please ,I'm trying to fix just please don't fire me'' I cried and begged my boss. Few days after and the boss saw that I 'obviously' didn't change for good. While I'm trying my best. 

''I don't have any other desicion ,Foxy. I gave you enough time and I don't see anything changed. I can't keep you for so long.'' He signed.

''Can't you see that I'm trying?!''

''Foxy..you are fired''

And then everything crashed. I lost my job. 
I don't know what to do now. With my health problems I don't think I will be able to find a new one. I failed myself. I failed her too. 
And If I lose her too..