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alexithymia

alexithynia - (n.) the inability to express your feelings.

Of course the first person I told the heartbreaking news to was Hannah. She'd been my best friend since we were like 3 and we live right next to each other. She's always there to comfort me when I need her, and that's why I told her before anyone else. I quickly send her a text and about a second later I hear a knock on the front door. I run down the stairs and of course Hannah is there, holding a tub of ice cream on one hand and two onesies on the other. I smile and open the door.

"Oh my god, you poor thing!" she exclaims as she tries to hug me without dropping her things.

"I'm fine, really." I lie as I grab the ice cream tub from her hand. It's Ben & Jerry's cookie dough, my favourite.

"I brought onesies and ice cream, which I see you already noticed." she says, glancing at the ice cream tub in my hands. "Oh! I forgot the face masks! And the tissues! And the-"

"It's fine, we don't need those things." I say as I put the tub on the table. She rolls her eyes.

"Party pooper!" she says teasingly as she nudges my shoulder, "Come on, let's go up to your room."

"On a school night? I don't think so, young lady." I say.

"But it's a special occasion! You just had a breakup! It's my duty as your best friend to cheer you up." she says flashing her sparkling blue eyes at me. Hannah is really pretty. She had big blue eyes, dirty blonde hair with light pink edges and a burst of freckles on her nose. Most guys in school would kill to go out with her. She's the type of girl that a guys like Jonah should date. Damn, I'm thinking about him again.

"Hey, don't think about Jonah, he doesn't deserve you." says Hannah, reading my mind. Somehow she always knows what I'm feeling, she's like a mind reader or something.

"I'm fine." I lie.

"You're not," she responds almost instantly, "you don't need to lie to me."

Those words are enough to break down the walls I build around me, the walls Hannah can always  trample through with her words. I collapse on the floor and start sobbing, hoping my tears will wash away the lonesome feeling.

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