My Mate

Panic Attack

~Kelcy's P.O.V~

As soon as I saw Chris I said "hey sweety" and he said hey back but right then I couldn't stop my self from the water works where's Makayla she normal helps when this happens must be talking to Payson "Kelcy baby what's wrong please talk to me" "can we go somewhere more private I can't let anyone hear this please" I need to stop being emotional right now and tell him the truth "yea sure just please stop crying" "I'll try" after our conversation we walk up to his room I sit on the bed and he shuts the door "okay so I wasn't all ways in Payson's pack but let me start from when I first met Makayla okay so we were both two and some hunters came and took me and my brother when we got there Makayla got kidnapped to we were tortured for three years till my parents came and rescued us I got to spend a week with my parents before they were at-tacked" ugh this isn't the time to stutter "they told us to run and the only place I could think of was Makayla's house so we ran there and get parents took us to Payson that's when we became part of his pack but when we were 7 me and Makayla were playing outside and some hunters came and kidnapped us again this time it was only me and her Hunter wasn't there thank god but we were there for almost a year till some drunk hunter came while we were sleep and got a silver knife and wrote mon-monster on our stomachs and it left a scar cause he used silver see" why can't Makayla be here she knows how to make me stop crying Chris looks at my stomach and his eyes turn black oh no he is mad so I mind link Makayla "Makayla help I told Chris about our scars and he got mad his eyes they are black what do I do please help" by now I'm sobbing so much I can't talk "me and Payson are coming Kelcy I need you to breath or else your gonna have another panic attack okay" "I'll try" after our little conversation they come in the room and over my sobbing in the corner I hear Makayla tell Payson "you get Chris to calm down I need to help Kelcy she is gonna have a panic attack and this one looks worse then the others" so she comes and talks to me "sweetheart I know that your scared but please calm down I won't let anyone hurt you just breath and talk to me" "I-i can-nt breath" I say in between my gasp for air "I know just breath in through your mouth out through your nose you'll be okay" I listen and I can't finally breath I crawl to her and she holds me in her lap while I cry into her shoulder "can you tell me what happen" "I was telling Chris about our past and I showed him my scar that says Monster and his eyes turned black he started growling and was on the verge of shifting and I got scared and then my memories were just playing in my head and so I went to the corner and I couldn't help but have a panic attack I tried everything you have said before when I was about to have one but it didn't work" by now Payson got Chris to calm down and they were all rubbing my back to soothe me "Kelcy baby I'm sorry for scaring you" Chris said to me "it wasn't your fault she was so scared she hasn't been the same since we got back the second time she has always been able to handle stuff lol that till me were rescued the second time now she is so scared she has panic attacks that's why we are so close I can't stand to see her that way and I'm the only one who can help her I got to her in time this time" Makayla told Chris "did she tell you how long we were there?" "No cause I started to get mad she told me about the scar that's it" I still can't talk cause I'm sobbing and it's getting worse I think "we were there seven years till my dad and Payson's pack came and rescued us she hasn't been the same since we have been back for almost two years and she is improving everyday by talking to more people and when we beat those girls it was her idea she was sticking up for herself I'm so proud of her" "t-h-a-n-k-s" I tell her but I can't seem to get the word out all at once "hey Kelcy don't stress about it I would do it again in a heartbeat" she is so sweet I hug her closer to my body "Kelcy I know you wanted to say thanks but save your energy don't try and talk want me to call your brother" okay don't talk Kelcy I know you want to but listen to Payson "honey I know she wants her brother" Makayla knows me to well when Hunter walked on he looked confused till he saw me oh my god are you okay Kelcy" I just ran into his arms he always comforted me the most "shh Kelcy your okay now I want you to calm down so you can talk" he sits with me on the floor in in his lap hugging him to me like if I let go he will disappear "okay I wanna know what happened and I wanna know now" Hunter told Makayla Chris and Payson "she was telling him about her past and why she is so afraid and always runs away and he got mad when he saw the scar his wolf started to surface and she got scared and had one of her panic attacks" Makayla told him "why does she have these" Chris asked they all look at me I can feel their stares on my back "Hunter knows he can tell you" I say to all of them through mind link cause I can't seem to use my voice "well after getting tortured for so long I guess when she gets scared her memory's come back and she freaks out cause she feels like they are happening again so she has a panic attack" that is why I love my brother he know exactly what to say "Kelcy sweetheart I'm sorry for scaring you can you please talk to me" I mind link him and say " it's okay I forgave you a long time ago I just can't seem to get any words out but I stopped crying" he answers out loud "okay well when you can just talk okay baby" I just nod my head and crawl out of Hunters lap and crawl to Makayla I just want to be close to her or Chris but I'm afraid that Chris is mad at me so I mind link Makayla "is Chris mad at me is he gonna reject me cause I'm such a freak and cause I have these panic attacks" she replies "I don't know do you want me to ask him" I just nod my head "Chris, Kelcy wants to know if you still want her as a mate and if your mad at her" I can feel him shake his head and stare at me "I could never be mad at you and I still really want you Kelcy I love you to much to let you go" okay let's see if I can talk now "I-I lo-love y-you t-to" why can't I just get out complete words after I said that I walk over to Chris and hug him like I've been doing to both Hunter and Makayla he holds me just as tight "thank you for understanding Chris I know it was hard for her to tell you" Makayla told Chris "y-yes t-tha-nk y-you" I say and everyone looks at me weird "Kelcy you have a panic attack and your still over here using your energy to say thank you why can't you just save it for later or use mind link" so I mind link them "because I want to say it properly not using my mind I rather use my energy for that rather than something else can I please sleep now" I ask cause you can see how tired I am I haven't got sleep the whole time we were at the beach because I couldn't sleep with out my mate I can't even wait for and answer and I curl up into my self and fall asleep on my mates arms looking like a ball "she can't even wait till we get her in bed sleeping beauty most really need sleep" with that I feel my self getting picked up and moved to the bed.