Wild thoughts

Call it off and tour

I woke up to Brian on the phone with someone, I pretended to sleep as I heard "I will see you soon babe, yeah Michelle, yeah Maria does not know, okay well I'll see you soon okay bye"he says as I was in shock. He has been using me, I felt arms around me as I pushed him away as he tried putting them back "don't touch me you asshole"I said as I got up and sat at the edge of my bed.

"What's wrong Maria"he says as I slap him "you have been using me, first you hook up with me then you ask me on a date, and you some what have a girlfriend who knows about me"I whisper yell since Christable is sleeping.

"What are you talking about"he says trying to grab me put I moved "don't touch me, I heard what you were talking about, you said you will see Michelle soon, then why don't you leave"I said "Maria I can explai....." "shut up Fred durst why don't you go sing for limp bizkit, not soul patch fool"I said as he stares at me as I roll my eyes "leave Brian I'm not gonna repeat myself again"I said as he got up and left.

I started to cry as I saw the night sky, I grabbed my boot that I have to wear since I have a broken toe as I got up as I walked towards the bathroom and took a shit since i need to.

I did my business as I decided to sleep and see what happens and forget Brian and move on.
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9 months later
I got a tattoo today, it awesome tattoo that me and christabel always wanted, we both got matching tattoos

Christable got her matching tattoo on her right arm. I dyed my hair too, she likes her natural.

I'm going to the studio since John said we had to discuss tour since we are touring with some band, I don't even know who it is so that's why I'm going today.
I took a shower and got ready

I went to John and Corey's house as I saw so many cars, I knocked on the door as Alexandria , John and Corey's daughter opens it "hey Maria, how are you"she says as I hug her "good how about you"I said as we talked as Corey and Jen come "hey sweetheart can we borrow Maria"Corey says as Alexandria nods as we walk to the back as I saw Brian, Matt, Zacky, Johnny and Jimmy. I didn't want to see Brian at all.

I saw an empty seat between Zacky and Brian as I rolled my eyes and sucked it up and sat next to Brian and Zacky. Brian didn't seem to recognize me as he looked miserable "when's maria coming"Matt says as I look up "I'm already here dipshit"I said as all the boys look at me as Matt smiles "wow nice hair, didn't even recognize you"he says as I have him a small smile as I pulled out my phone and texted christabel.

"So maria, we are going on tour this week so we need to start thinking on what are going on, bus or plane"John asks as everyone looks at me as I continued to text "are you even listening"he says as I nod as I groan and put my phone down "Well it's not my opinion but bus since I hate planes, I hate riding with people that I don't even know or like"I said as John grabbed my phone as I was about to grab it "give me my phone back, Christable is texting me about Roberts slipknot thongs ripping"I said as everyone just started as John looked disgusted and gave me my phone back as I smirk.

"Thank you and I'm taking top bunk, and ooh can you make a request of hot lime Cheetos and more Cheetos and get some soda and tequila or don Julio's"I said as John nods as we finish our businesses as it was late.

I made my way out of the house as I was stopped by Zacky "hey why you leaving so fast"he says as I stop as I turned around "I have to do things and I don't want to see Brian at all"I said as I walked away and Zacky stopped me again "him and Michelle aren't together anymore , she called it off when she found out about what syn was doing"he says as I roll my eyes "do you think that's gonna make me happy, well it's not, I have to go, see you this week"I said as I left.
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I waited at the bus stop for hours, it was raining as I was standing under my umbrella as I saw the bus finally pull up, I am fucking cold and pissed off. The door open revealing seth as I got in as i looked at everyone angrily.

"What"John says as I stick the middle finger out "fuck all of y'all, I was waiting for hours and y'all end up showing up for me, how great is that, maybe next that I'm gonna do that to y'all when I have my own tour"I yelled as I went to the bathroom in the bus and changed
Into something comfortable.

I felt dizzy as I felt like fainting, my head was hurting and my nose was stuffy, I walked out as I fell on top of Brian as I got up as I fell to the floor "Maria are alright"Zacky asks as I shake my head yes as I got up Johnny stood in front of me as I collapsed in his arms as I blacked out.
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I woke up on the couch I saw everyone surrounding me "what happened"I ask as they looked at me "you passed out due to ummm"Matt says as I wait for his responses "what is it"I ask as I sat up as Jen sat in front of me as Brian said "you have anemia"he says as I sat there processing what he said "I'm anemic"I said as they all nod as I felt like my childhood came back, when I was 13 I was diagnosed with anemia and I had iron pills with me all the time and it went away but how to I have it again.

I got up and grabbed as much food I needed because my mom said I get this from not eating to much, I start eating chips as I stuffed all of them in my mouth as I opened a can of Coca Cola as I chugged it down as everyone just looked at me "I'm gonna get myself fat again so I don't look ugly"I said as I continued eating as John sat in front of me and snatched all the food "junk food isn't gonna help get rid of your anemia, it goes away if you eat healthy food, chips won't help, anemia means that your white blood sells can't fight the germs off and it kind of kills the red blood cells, Maria , you got to eat healthy food, let's go get a salad or eat a veggie burger"I gagged at the word burgers, I've always hated burgers the taste just makes me sick.

"Not burgers they make me sick, I want a salad with crispy chicken"I said as Brian went for it as I waited for my food.