Can It Be You // kth

Thirty seven

Since its monday, I came to school earlier than usual. Thinking that I'll be alone for the few hours but I was wrong, and for Flag ceremony purposes.

Entering the building, Jungkook was the first one to greet me. "Hey? Are you okay?" I didn't bother to answer since my tears started to fall real quick.

I wasn't expecting to be this weak even at school.

I ran to our classroom but stopped in front of it to relax myself before entering.

Few of my classmates are already inside. Lisa and Shin hye haven't arrived yet. I sat on my table and quickly plugged in my earphones.

I rest my head down to my desk.

Being alone makes me do flashbacks. Not to be over reacting. But seeing my mom that angry and disappointed. I have felt nothing but guilt. She didn't stopped shouting at me last night. She's scary. She's a different type of person I never met.

Everything happened so fast.

I didn't notice I was already tearing up—No. I'm already crying my heart out quietly.

I put my palms in my eyes to prevent my tears from falling but it just wont stop. I cant breath normarlly and my heart's beating so fast. My breath started to be shaky and I can feel my cheeks turning hot. I'm trying to squeeze my eyes shut and chasing my breath just in case I'll calm down doing this way.

I was having an anxiety attack until Lisa and Shin Hye came, hugged me and quickly dragged me outside the room.

"Hey, Hyerin, you need to stop"
"Hyerin stop it"
"C'mon Hyerin breath, breath baby, breath"
"Calm down Hyerin stop it"

I started to grab my chest, trying my best to calm myself and chase my breath. I'm already crying so hard not just because I'm in an emotional situation right now, but because I'm struggling to breath.

I noticed how the girls look so worried with their eyebrows furrowed. They clicked their tongues and decided to hug me real tight.

I still struggling to breath but normal one like how a person cant stop crying. I started to calm down from the attack but breakdown, crying so hard for what I'm feeling right now.

Everything's so perfect. It feels so magical that time but why does destiny have to treat me, us this way.

Lisa and Shin Hye's comforting while I rest myself to the wall, Taehyung suddenly walked in front of us stealing a glance but didnt bother to approach us.

The girls waited for me to calm down started cheering me up by telling stories making me smile a bit.

We walked outside since its time for the flag ceremony, student starts falling in line base on their class sections. We behave after falling in line and didnt notice that Taehyung is on the other line on the right where boys are only there.

After the flag ceremony, Lisa and Shin hye's on my side letting me to just follow them while walking back inside the building until someone started pulling me away from the girls, and its Taehyung.

Taehyung brought me to the garden next to the building only but there's this small pathway, its narrow, we didnt enter the garden entirely but stayed on the pathway. I was about to walk away when he hold my wrist again.

"Please, let's talk about it at least" Taehyung said looking down then at me, showing me his sad eyes. I started to tear up having the flashbacks from yesterday and Taehyung automatically pull me into his embrace.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry its all my fault" Taehyung said while smoothly caressing my back and resting his chin on the top of my head.

I became calm in a matter of seconds and trying my best to talk to him.

"What, what happened yesterday? Until now, it wont sink in, why did Lisa said I cant talk to you?" Taehyung said, his head down.

"Hey Tae, its not your fault, its just, mom really dont like the way we want things to happen" I said caressing his both hands while his infront of me and me resting my back on the wall.

"But we're already a teen, Hyerin, plus, we're not even in a relationship yet we're just—you know..just"

"I know but Tae, I'm already grounded after what happened yesterday, and my mom wants me..wants me to-

"Stay away from me? Hyerin-

"Taehyung, Its fine. It'll be fine, we can see each other everyday anyway right? At least we can hangout on weekdays" I tried my best to comfort him and I dont know what I'm doing, I shouldnt talk to him, I should be in my class by now. But I can't just leave him here, dumbfounded.

I am too, sad that we cant talk again like how we talked before, we have limits now. Especially when mom's around.

"Hyerin, nothing's gonna change right? Like you're still gonna talk to me? Right?"

Oh taehyung..

"I-i dont..I dont know..I dont know tae, what if- what if mom will found out again that I'm still talking to you?"

"Then..t-then we wont let her found out..we'll find a way to tell them again when its time" Taehyung said obviously not sure whatever we're planning to do, and I dont know why I'm being problematic with him, its not like we're in a relationship already..but, I-I cant just leave him alone right..?

"O-okay Tae, everything will go back to normal for us soon, no one's grounded, no one's gonna stay away, okay?"

"Okay" and he gave me that soothing smile making me completely calm down, we walked back together to our class and luckily the Teacher's not there yet, we sat down on our table since we're back to being seatmates now.

We turned back again on focusing ourselves on school not minding our problem with my parents. We just wanted to chill whatever happens. And I dont know why I'm so chill about it. Maybe because he's there.

He promised he'll be there.