My happiness has came to an end
Back to the depression, anxiety, and loneliness
The ones I knew before
This time was worse
I loved harder
And stronger
More than I have ever have
But once again disappointment found its way back to me
I found myself drowning in this tears I thought would never come again
The same tears that I thought were dried up from previous years
But it's seems to me, plenty more are available
Is that good ?
Is it healthy?
You know to cry as much as it hurts
Does that make the pain go away?
Or does it create more ?
Maybe that's why
That's why I still have tears left
I didn't allow the hurt to go away
Or maybe I did
Maybe it just came back too soon
Sooner than I thought
Harder than I thought too !
Maybe that's the problem
Maybe I love to hard
Too strong
Too much !
Should I love less ?
But maybe I can't
Maybe I was created to love hard
And strong
Maybe God made me like that on purpose
Maybe he has something in store for me !
Maybe I have to just wait and see
Does God really have something for me ?
Something that can heal me from all these emotions?
Or does he just want me to continue to release those tears until they are gone for good?
Maybe then I won't cry anymore over the simple things in life
-B.R.
