Be More Chill

More Than Survive

( The video above is just to give you an idea of how the song sounds like with a girl singing it, also, yes you masturbate and get horny a lot :) )

"C-c-c'mon, c-c-c'mon, go go" You tapped your foot on the floor impatiently. "C-c-c'mon! c-c-c'mon, go go!" You yelled, running a hand through your hair. "I'm waiting for my porno to load" You rested your head on your fist. Your fingers tapping your desk impatiently as you watched the loading screen.

"My brain is gonna freakin' explode" Your hands ran over your face. You turned to your phone, which was right next to you and checked the time, 7:30. You sighed in annoyance and grumbled, "And now, of course, it's time to hit the road" You cupped your ears in your hands, rolling your eyes as you looked down. "Which means I'll be uncomfortable all day"

You got up from your chair, kicking your backpack upwards, which was on the floor, and grabbed the notebook from your desk, looking through it quickly. "But that really isn't such a change" You threw your backpack on your bed. "If I'm not feeling weird or super strange" You climbed onto the bed to place the notebook inside the backpack. "My life would be in utter disarray" You groaned, flopping yourself onto the pillows. "'Cause freaking out is my okay!" You faked a smile and yelled sarcastically, rolling out of bed "Good morning, time to start the day!"

"C-c-c-c'mon, c-c-c-c'mon, go go! C-c-c-c'mon, c-c-c-c'mon, go go!" You pulled up your pants and went into the kitchen, trying to get a small snack.

In the corner of your eye you spotted your mom sitting on the couch, watching tv. "Hey, honey" she spoke to you, not taking her eyes off the screen. "Sup" you replied moodily. "So, you're not going out today?" you asked, looking around the cabinets.

"I don't know" she shrugged. "Well, why don't you?" You leaned against the counter. "Just try and find someone!"

Your mom sighed, uttering. "I was planning on it but I just feel so tired today, honey, m-maybe tomorrow" You growled and stomped over to your room, not hungry anymore.

Ever since your dad cheated on your mom, she hasn't even, no, she hasn't even tried to find a new relationship, and its been years after the break up. All you want is for her to be happy and find someone but she is making it VERY difficult.

Once you got to your room, you walked over to your closet. "Should I take the bus or walk instead?" You sighed, clutching your stomach. "I feel my stomach filling up with dread" You plopped yourself on your desk, grabbing your phone. You could see yourself through the black screen. "When I get nervous my whole face goes red" You sighed, trying to calm yourself.

"Dude, weigh the options calmly and be still" You sat down on your bed. "A junior on the bus is killer weak," You grabbed your backpack. "But if I walk when I arrive I'm gonna straight-up reek" You went down and reached for the shoes under your bed. "And my pants will be bunchy and my pits will leak" You huffed, placing the shoes on. "Ugh, God, I wish I had the skill" You looked at the time again and panicked, plopping whatever you can into your backpack and ran towards the window. "To just be fine and cool and chill" The bus was there.

You raced outside and chased after the bus but it went off. "I don't wanna be a hero" You cried, walking. "Just wanna stay in the line" You got off the street and into the side. "I'll never be your Rob DeNiro, for me Joe Pesci is fine, and so I follow my own rules and I use them as my tools, to stayyyyy alive" You arrived at the school and gulped. "I don't wanna be special, no no" You shook your head. "I just wanna survive!"

You turned to see the bus pull up at the school, as the kids were pushing each other to get off, they yelled, "C-c-c-c'mon, c-c-c-c'mon, go go! C-c-c-c'mon, c-c-c-c'mon go go!" You were about to head inside when you spotted Jeremy, your buddy. "Hey, Jer!" You called, waving over to him. He spotted you and came over. "Hey, Y/n! You gonna get stuff from your locker?" Jeremy asked. You nodded, asking him if he could company you and he agreed.