Little Did I Know (JiminXReader)

Movies Can't Distract Me From My Thoughts

I sat on the couch, stuffing McDonald fries in my face. Jimin was taking a sip of his drink as he sat and watched the movie.

I mean, I was trying to watch the movie too... I just have a hard time paying attention to what's going on on the screen when I'm in this state.

So much was going through my head... It was hard to just tell my brain to shut up.

I stared at the floor with a blank face as I stuffed more fries into my mouth.

As I sat, more of the daunting thoughts pilied up in my head....

It was like... It started to feel like clawed hands were slowly closing in on me. I almost wanted to scream, and I could tell I was starting have a panic attack. I started to rock in place, trying to keep a steady breath, but struggling to as I started hyperventilating. Jimin obviously noticed, turning to look at me with worry in his eyes.

"Oh my God, (Y/N) are you ok?" Jimin put his arm around me, his other hand holding my shoulder as he tried to get me to look at him.

I couldn't speak, suddenly not being able to calm myself down whatsoever, and I even started to cry. Jimin hurried and grabbed the TV remote, switching the TV off, then turning to hug me.

"Shhhh, it's ok. Breathe." I cried into his shoulder as he held me tightly in his arms.

My sobbing soon turned into little hiccups as I finally calmed down. I finally stopped crying, then just sat there, trying to catch my breath.

It's not often when I have panic attacks... And when I do, they come at pretty random times... It suck that it had to be now though.

"S-sorry.... I-I had a panic attack..." I said, not moving from Jimin's warm hug.

"You don't need to be sorry. Are you ok?" Jimin asked.

"I will- I will be after I... catch my breath, and get a drink." I said.

"Here, let me go get you a glass of water."

"You don't have t-" I tried to say, but he was already in the kitchen.

I layed back into the couch, covering my face with my hands in stress. Why'd that have to be in front of Jimin...

Soon, Jimin came back into the living room with a cup of water.

"I'll be right back." He said after going again.

I took a good long sip from the cup, letting the cool water run down my throat pleasantly. It really is when you're dehydrated when water tastes it's absolute best.

Jimin came into the room, a certain plushie in hand.

"You got Mama Kang for me." I said, smiling softly at the sweet gesture.

Jimin smiled and nodded, giving me the plushie. I immediately clung to it, my knees to my chest on the couch.

Jimin put an arm around me to comfort me further.

"So..." Jimin said after a moment if silence, "What's going on??"

I looked up to Jimin.

"H-hm?"

"Are you feeling okay??"

"I am now."

"I mean, yeah. But I mean more than that... I heard our voice on the phone earlier. It sounded like... Like you had been crying???"

There go my acting skills.

Jimin turned to face me more.

"(Y/N), why were you crying?"

...

I didn't know how to explain it all to him, or if I even should...

"I... I dunno." Was all that came out of my mouth, which hurt because I did actually want to tell him everything... something was just keeping me from saying so.

"I think you do know. (Y/N), you do know that you can tell me anything, right?"

I sighed, taking another sip of water as I hugged Mama Kang.

"Yeah, yeah I do know... I'm just... I'm having a hard time... At the moment."

Jimin nodded, knowing immediately what I was meaning.

"I'm sorry." I half whispered.

"For what?"

"For-for getting us into this mess..." I said, recalling all the hate both if us were getting.

"(Y/N), you didn't do this." Jimin said, "and besides, it's not that bad. We get hate all the time. This is no different."

"But I still feel bad. I feel bad that we can't hang out... Like how we used to..." I said, "I miss how it was before..."

I finished my drink, Jimin grabbing the empty cup and putting it on the coffee table in front of us. That's when a thought hit me.

"You got permission to come here, right?"

"Yeah, of course I did."

"Mm. Good." I said cuddling close to Jimin with Mama Kang.

Being this close to Jimin... It just made me feel calm.

As I sat there, suddenly these thoughts came to my head.

If Jimin and I were actually together... How would things be??? Would they be... actually better than this? I ended up shaking those thoughts away. Stupid curiosity.

I just gotta relax and enjoy just being friends with Jimin. It's really nice, always being there for each other.

"Thank you." I murmured

"For what?"

"For being here. For being, just, there for me, always." I said looking down at Mama Kang, "I feel like I really can't ever repay you for what you've done for me. I... Am so so grateful I met you so long ago. I'm so glad to be your friend. Thank you."

I looked up, and saw a warm smile forming on Jimin's face, making his eyes turn into little slits. He also had a slight blush covering his cheeks.

"Thank you too, Muffin." He said, ruffling my hair slightly, making me let out a little "yah".

I pushed his hand away, before smiling widely.

It's funny how fast Jimin can change my mood. I'm glad that he's the one that's bound to make me happy.

HEEYYYYY, soooooo. Long story short, school is a bitch. :V

I'll try to get more chapters out, but things might be slow cuz 1. I'm kinda starting to have a writers block 😱 and 2. School.

So yeah.

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