I met the Devil in God's Country

Fragile

Chapter Seven

Kon

I can't stop thinking about Kit, I miss him so much. Why does he like to grab me in my arms while he speaks or while he expresses how much he likes me and every-time he does that I feel obliged to answer back or to give in to his charms. I have never been a submissive person, for goodness sake I live to be dominant but the way he kisses my neck, his hands grasping my hands tight, his gentle kisses on my ears while whispering my name, that warm breath and that warm body on top of me makes me go goosebumps now. Last night was the first time we had sensual body to body experience, I usually get what I want, I am aggressive but last night though I wanted to make love to him all we did was kiss, we were all naked but he never go to third base, I was hesitant as well, I didn't know what to do, I didn't know how to go down there though he left me hanging with overflowing libido we were satisfied. We slept together naked, holding each others hand and embracing from time to time.  For the first time in my life someone said Good morning Love as the sun rays of the morning sets in my eyes. Kit was brighter than the sun, His good morning kiss was the best in my morning today.

It has only been four hours but I am longing for his touch now. I miss him so much. I miss him everyday.

"Good morning Love" I whisper trying to imitate his accent or recall how he said that to me and then I smiled.

Does that mean he loves me now? No, he needs to say I love you, love is now widely used as a term of endearment to people you care. It has been a month since we started dating secretly but I guess my team knows about us, to hell with them I do not care of what they think. For the first time I feel loved. I cannot believe it, there is really someone who can love me in spite of my character and attitude. He sees how  vicious the way I speak to people, He sees how terrible I am when I do not meet my expectations and He sees the ugly side of me but still chose to like me.

"Kon!" My euphoria was blocked by Logan's loud voice. I look at him dumbfounded. "What's with the smile? I have been standing and calling your name for about 10 seconds and you're there looking drugged in ecstasy" He continued.

"What do you need?" I did not acknowledge what he said. I feel ashamed, its rare for someone to see me in that condition. It is a sign of weakness.

"Are you thinking about your lover boy?" He teased.

"Don't waste my time, what do you need?"

"So day dreaming is not a waste of time huh?" He murmured but I ignored him "Anyway, congratulations our team is on top three again this month"

"I know"

"Can I talk to you?"

"What?"

He look around to make sure that there is no one in the office.

"Are you and Kit official?"

"No"

"You've been dating for how long now? he sleeps in your bedroom for many many times and I was wondering do you need me to relocate for you two can have the house privately by yourselves?"

"Where did you get that Idea?"

"Well maybe its time for me to go, if you're happy with him and planning to live  together I can move out or you guys can get one bedroom flat"

"Nonsense!" I interrupted his stupid thinking "We're not lovers, there's mutual understanding but that doesn't mean were on that love level" I continued.

"Okay"

"Okay what?" He interrupted me just to say that?

"I'm happy if he makes your heart tickle with Joy" He smiled "I just want you to know Kit even more deeper and"