I know it's been a year and a half. Don't ask. I log onto this account every other month or so just to check notifs/messages and I don't have much to say here.
A lot has happened but idk. Don't feel like explaining everything. I identify as a girl again, kinda sorta. I still don't care what pronouns you refer to me by, but these days I'm just... starting to realize I'm probably cis. There's a lot of things I felt about myself in my earlier teenage years that I'm absolutely not gonna dismiss, but when you look back at the trauma I was going through at that time, the pieces start coming together as to why I thought I was trans. I'm maturing though, and I realize at this point why I felt that way. I still reallylikemaintaining an androgynous profile, and I honestly think that's where so much of what I felt has come from, so I encourage you to continue to view me as whatever you want. I get a big serotonin boost at being viewed as not female, but irl that's probably what my gender is lol.
Onto what I'm writing this about: runes. I sat down last night and decided, y'know, why not teach myself how to write in runes? So I did! It only took me an hour to get the hang of it and wow, I love it. I still have a lot of trouble reading, but I'm sure if I keep up with it I can learn pretty quickly. I'm largely inspired by Skáld, an epic band you should totally check out.
Tell me this doesn't awaken something in you. It really makes me think about the rampant Christianization that took place in the early ages, which in turn makes me angry. Not at people converting, you can believe whatever you want as long as it makes you happy, but at the people doing the converting. As I said, it was rampant and almost killed off paganism and the use of runes as a whole. Runes were a thing of the past by the 1100's, with small exceptions like that of an extremely isolated town in Sweden which only stopped using them 100 years ago. It's very sad when you think of it and it makes me wonder what the world would look like had Christianization not happened as aggressively as it did. So much culture was nearly erased, not just in northern Europe, but elsewhere too. It's like a slap in the face sometimes when you see certain practices being demonstrated and realize that it could be normal.
I encourage you to try writing in one of the runic alphabets. It's really fun and easy once you get the hang of it. There's a few to choose from. This is the one I'm learning:
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C, K, and Q share the same rune, as well as V and W. For X, you just put the K and S runes together. You don't have to use the NG and TH, but I am. I'm making it even more challenging for myself by differentiating between the voiced th and non-voiced th. In Icelandic and even English used to, these are/were represented by þ and ð. In runes, it's ᚦ and ᚧ. ᚦ is like the th in think, and ᚧ is like the th in this. One is rougher, and the other flows off your tongue. However, I can barely differentiate so :/ Might drop using ᚧ.
Yea. Bit of an all over the place chapter, but as I said, it's been a year and a half. Had a lot of emotions and a lot of things happening during that time. I'm turning 17 soon. Wow. I'll maybe post a chapter then, but no promises. So... maybe see you in September?
