I Love You More | MJJ ✔️

{Chapter 48}

Michael doesn't call me in this two days. Understandable. Even I'm feeling really terrible and guilty for doing it. Imagine his side...

"Laura!"

Mom?

"Yeah?"

I open the door and see her holding a package.

"What's this?"

"I don't know. It's just addressed to you."

"Oh, okay..."

I take it and it feels a bit heavy. There's more than a letter inside.

"By the way, you look upset nowadays."

"Me?"

"Yeah. Are you fine? Is your work bothering you?"

"Work never bothers me, mom. And I'm good. I'm just tired sometimes."

"Okay okay..."

"Oh and...speaking of work-"

She looks at me in curiosity.

"I'm not being an accountant."

"I know."

"How?"

"Dance instructor, right? We know, sweetie."

"And you don't kill me?"

"Why would we? You chose your passion on your own and there's no way we'll stop you from it."

Oh wow...

"Thank you, mom..."

"Our pleasure."

Finally, she leaves and I lock the door. I open the package and a walkman with a piece of letter. It says,

'Laura, please listen to this song.
This is for you.
Love,
MJ'

What is he up to? I put on my earphones and press the button. The music starts playing. It already sounds like a sad song.

'Don't walk away...
See I just can't find the right thing to say...'

I cover my mouth with my palm.

'Tell me what I have to do so, you'll stay...
Should I get down on my knees and pray,
How can I stop losing you...
How can I begin to stay...
When there's nothing left to do but walk away.....'

Tears fall onto my cheeks.

'I close my eyes...
Just to try and see you smile one more time...
But it's been so long now all I do is cry...
Can't we find some love to take this away...
Cause the pain gets stronger every day,
How can I begin again...
How am I to understand...
When there's nothing left to do but walk away.....'

"Michael....!"

Now, I'm crying so hard.

'See, and why.....
All my dreams been broken,
I don't know where we're going,
Everything we said and all we've done now...
Don't let go... I don't want to walk away...'

My cheeks are all wet with my tears. I'm crying very loudly in my room. Thank Lord, mom and dad aren't home.

'If you go, I won't forget you, girl...
Can't you see, that you will always be...
Even though, I had to let you go...
There's nothing left to do,
Don't walk away..........'

It started out with a sad melody and ended up with a sadder one. I remove the earphones and weep. I thought I was strong enough to handle this. We've broken up but yes, we still do have feelings for each other. How do we forget each other?

We've made a lot of memories. We've been through each other's ups and downs. Our relationship didn't even last six months but we've gone through a LOT of stuffs. How do we even get over this? How do we do........!?