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Let Me Go

Just let me go.

It's getting difficult for both of us, and it's a struggle neither of us deserves. So I beg you- please, let me go. I cannot do this anymore.

I often wake up in at night to find her crying beside me. More often than not, she's covered in bruises, sometimes even bleeding. She's always in pain and agony, and that is the one thing I can't accept.

You know what the worst part is? She refuses to leave me. No matter how hard I try to convince her that it's not possible  for us to have a life together, and that I'll only end up hurting her. She always gives me that same crooked smile, the one that looks like sunshine itself, and says, "We will. Some day, we will."

I never understand the cause behind her confidence, since our situation just seems to be getting worse as the days pass. Yesterday at night, I woke up to find her crying into her hands, with a bleeding wound on her lip. As I hurried over to comfort her, I couldn't help but notice that the shape of the bruises around her neck matched the shape of my own fingers.

Yet, she continues to believe that we can have a life together. I tried to leave her. I went so far away that I was almost sure she wouldn't be able to find me. Yet, she did. She ran into my arms like she always did, yelled at me for leaving her alone, and begged me to come back.

I'm a fool. When she started crying, I couldn't refuse her. Her tears are the one thing I can't stand, and she knows that. She knew that once she started crying, I'd do whatever she wanted me to. And that is exactly what happened.

Why somebody would be so eager to bring their tormentor back home, I do not know. But I know that she loves me, and that I love her back. I cannot live without her.

And therefore, you must go.

We've shared the same body for years, even when I realised what you actually are. I tried to lose you, and realised the futility of trying to make a demon obey me. I gave up, made peace with you, and hoped that all will go well. But she taught me to dream, and to love. Giving her the life she deserves is the least I can do for her. And I'll make sure she gets it.

I ask you to let me go, but know this- don't mistake my inaction for my weakness. I'll do whatever it takes to get you away from her, to stop you from hurting her. Listen to me and leave, and it will end well for both of us. Even if you don't, I'm sure everything will end well for me.

.....I can't say the same for you.