Throw your colors at the dark

Chapter One

"Hey guys!" I open the door with a genuine smile

"Amanda!" Remington cheers, "It's so good to see you out of the hospital!"

"Yeah" I laugh a bit, hugging him, then Sebastian hugs me, staying quiet as usual "Hey Sebastian" he nods, smiling, then enters my house, and lastly, Emerson opens his arms supper wide with an even wider smile and hugs me

"Hey kid" he sings and I laugh, rolling my eyes

"Your only like four years older then me" I laugh

"Im still older" he smirks

They all file into my house, just set up it's all clean, but it won't be for long. More and more people start coming over and we all start ordering food and people go buy alcohol and tree. It turns out to be a whole ass welcome home party, and the night goes really good, until....

"Hey guys!" Andy walks in with Alysha, I run into the kitchen to find CC, but the only people in there are Jaime, Vic, Emerson, Mike, and Alex.

"Hey Amanda"

My eyes go wide and they can see my panic, I turn, and run into the backyard where more people are, and start looking around. I see Ashly, Skyler, Jade, Grim -Who apparently moved out here with sky instead of going to Montana-, Shane? And Ashly. I start running back into the house, and when I do Mike stops me,

"Hey" he grabs my arm and I pull back "Hey what's going-"

"Hey Amanda" Andy calls and I look up "You here with your date?"

"And who invited you?" I smear, he looks kinda hurt, but doesn't speak up on it

"Well it's not a party without me is it" he laughs, then walks away

I take a deep breath, then walk away, going to the bathroom. I go in, and clothes the door then starts wheezing. He's here! I can't believe he's here...

All the sudden the door opens and someone shrieks, "oh I'm so- Amanda?"

I turn my back wiping my wet face, "Y-Yeah?"

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing" I turn around pulling on a smile to see Remington, who looks complete and utterly concerned

"Amanda-"

"I'm fine" I laugh a bit, trying to pull it off, then my eyes widen when he steps forwards and pulls me into him. I stiffen up, squeezing my eyes shut, then after a second I give in. I wrap my arms around his neck and squeeze my body into him, letting tears fall, I choke a bit "God I'm always crying aren't I?" I laugh, "All I ever do is-"

"Shut up" He says, so I laugh, which turns into sobs

We stay like that for a while, then as I calm down a bit he starts swaying, and just comforts me. After a little while he pulls away, all concerned, and I just look down, disappointed in myself. I should've stayed in Hawaii, I came back too soon...

"Talk to me"

"I'm just worthless" I laugh, and he furrows his eyebrows "Andy was right"

"Andy?" His eyes widen

I nod "He said so earlier, and now he's here and-" I take a deep breath "I don't know I just-"

I start getting anxiety and start feeling claustrophobic, then just then I get a call

Ring ring
Ring-

"Hello?"

"Amanda it's Johnnie" my manager calls