Throw your colors at the dark

Chapter Two

I wake up in a familiar place... the hospital. "Fuck you Andy" I sit up as my eyes adjust to the light, and look around in a panic, all I see is Remington and his eyes light up. He stands up quickly and rushes to my side. I stand up and he shrieks, "YO! Sit down!"

"Get off" I push him back annoyed and rip the IV out of my arm.

"Amanda!" He shouts, and I rip another one, so he restrains my hands "NURSE!"

"Shut up, I don't wanna talk to anyone" I push him away, then a nurse comes in

"Your awake!" She squeaks "We thought you'd be-"

"Yeah, because doctors are fucking dumb and don't know what their-"

"Amanda!" Remington pleads, I rip another IV out he shouts "Stop!"

"Honey your bleeding" she comes over and I say

"Oh wow, really? I couldn't tell" with a very annoyed tone "how long have I been here?"

"Two-"

"Fuck" I roll my eyes "Bet this is all over twitter"

"That doesn't matter-"

"Yeah it does, now everyone's gonna be like oh she's a train reck, her career is tanking" I wave my hands around then squeak "ow!" As the nurse removed the needles

"I'm sorry Ms."

"Just let me do it" I go to rip another one out but Remington slaps my hand

"You need to sit down" he pushes my shoulder, so with a sigh, I sit on the bed "what's your problem?"

"I just wanna go home"

"Well, you have to stay a few-"

"I don't have to do shit, I'm going home" I tell the nurse

They probably think I'm such a bitch, but I didn't need to come here. I don't want to be here, "honey you can't-"

"No, you can't hold me against my will" I spew angrily

"We just want to help-"

"I don't care" I sing "I wanna go fucking home"

"Amanda, me and Andy moved your-"

"WHAT?" I shriek and his eyes widen "You can't just move my shit without asking me!"

He looks sad, and I just want to scream. "Amanda-"

"Please just leave" I say and his jaw drops "I'm sorry but I can't-"

"Your such a bitch" He scrunches up his face, and leaves

What have I done? I'm such a piece of shit. People don't leave, I drive them away. I drove my parents away, my sister. If I never drove Lilly away I wouldn't have fucking met Andy and gone on tour and if I never went on tour I would've never destroyed my fucking family. I'm the biggest piece of shit! I take months off of tour, come back to no friends, kicked out of my band. My business is going under because I've been away for HALF of a YEAR. I haven't done YouTube or anything, I'm just a train wreck.

The nurse looks at me scared, and I say, "Just Bill me"

"You shouldn't-"

"Look, my life is falling apart and I don't have time, I need to do something okay? If I don't do it right fucking now everything is gonna- I'm gonna go bankrupt!" I cover my face

"Calm-"

"No no no" I start blowing on my thumb, then rip the last IV out, and start looking around for my shit. "Where my phone? My clothes"