𝐉𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐛𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐟𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐬 ?

chapter 1

I'm walking to Shawn's house I'm so  about it. I dont know how he's going to react. My phone rings, it's Shawn. Do I have to answer ? I'm meeting him in two minutes. Then I decided to not answer. I finally arrive in front of his house. I'm ringing the bell.
Shawn opens the door for me. My heart is beating faster and faster.
He starts to talk :

"Why didn't you answer me ? He says looked worried
- I figured since I saw you right after that, it was useless.
- Okay, you wanted to talk to me ?
- Yes. *I'm saying very gently.*
- I want to talk about Brie.
- Oh, I see, but you dont want to tell me the next time... or otherwise tonight ? Do you want me to come to your house ?
- Why not now ? All you do is ignore me Shawn ! I'm tired of it. I say trying to hold back my tears.
- Brie is sleeping in my bed. I dont want her to just show up like this. So tonight ?
- Yes..." I said.

I answer with a hesitant leave because in reality may be he won't even come.

"I'm sorry Amy.
- Sorry about what, Shawn ?
- Everything, I'd rather we talk about it later."

Then he opens is arms to me so I can give him a hug. (Impossible to resist.)
We then hug each other. Then I leave his house, waiting for tonight.
I put on my headphones and finally don't go home I want to be alone with myself. At that moment I receive a message from my mother: "Shawn is home."
Oh, my God! I had forgotten that he was coming, he really did come. I tell my mother I'm coming. I see shawn waiting for me on the swing my favorite place in the garden where we spent all our time before finally before Brie...
He greets me, I do the same and go sit next to him I don't feel well I don't feel my heart anymore but I decide to speak start.

"I'm sorry I went out and didn't look at the time. I said
- No, don't worry, it's okay, Brie left early.
I don't look at him, but I see who's looking at me, his gaze is so destabilizing.
- About her. I mean, that's why I had to talk to you, remember
- Yeah, so tell me what's wrong. You're not jealous, are you? Jealous?
I'm sorry, is Shawn calling me jealous of her? That bastard.
- What? No man. You're just abandoning me and I don't like it. I don't recognize my best friend Shawn Mendes since you've been with her.
- Oh.. He starts saying I didn't know you thought that I'm really sorry but you're my best friend I'll never leave you see. It's just that right now Brie wants to be with me all the time since she's going to France for 1 month and a half.
His voice crackles
- I'm not talking about "right now" but generally even before this week, months before that's the way it is! I mustn't cry I'm not weak
- Amy, I'm really sorry. Do you want to spend next month together ?
- I don't know. Shawn Brie wouldn't be very happy to hear that you spent a whole month together jealous as she is.
- I feel more like you're the one who's jealous.
Is he kidding me ?
- It's okay, you can't go home. I don't want to talk to you anymore.
My tears are starting to flow
- I can't stay for dinner ?
- No, I'm sorry.
- But I also have something to tell you. - So you can tell me later I'm tired of all this, Shawn, so please leave.
- You won, if that's what you want. I don't understand you anymore, Amy. What the hell is going on in your head !?
I feel like he's starting to get angry. I don't want to argue with him.
- But there's only you in my head !
I scream. Shit. Did I really say that? I'm so stupid, my God, no.
- What ?
He calms down his voice seems softer. - Forget it, go home." I say.
He doesn't insist and goes home without saying a word I see him leave he has his hands in the pockets of his blue jeans it's so rare to see him with this color. What did I do ?

It's been 3 days since I last heard from Shawn.
He is not active on networks Was I really stupid ?
Yes. It's 1:00 a. m. I should be asleep, but what am I doing ? I'm looking at the pictures of Shawn and I.
I don't know what's happening to me. I'm not myself anymore. I'm so lost. I feel the sun's brightness waking me up but.
No, damn it ! I had an appointment with my sister who just came back from Italy.
It's 1:00 p. m. How did I get up at this hour? I must have fallen asleep late then. I go to my phone, unlocking it I come across an old conversation between Shawn and I. I must have fallen asleep reading it yesterday. I have 30 minutes to get ready.
I let go of my brown hair and do a little makeup. I wear black jeans and a yellow Vans sweatshirt. I'm about to go out and send a message to my sister but I'm receiving a message from Shawn.
He says,

"meet me at the park at 2:00."

Time for the meeting with my sister. Does that mean I'm going to have to choose between the two? I say,

"Can't we do this around 5:00 instead? I'm seeing my sister again in an hour."

I tremble as I write, but I can't wait for his answer, I get out and take the bus to join her near the park. Coincidentally, in the same place Shawn proposed. During the journey I do not receive any answer from him. I finally arrive and I see my sister talking to a man, wait, don't you, Shawn ? What the hell is going on here? I approach, Elijah runs to hug me. She missed me so much it feels good to see her again but I look at Shawn behind us staring at us.

What were they talking about before I got here ?