It started as a kiss. How did it end up like this?

don't let go

*A/N instead of 10 parts like I said, I might do 15-20*

**TW: SELF HARM**

***Mit POV***

I waved bye as Clinton was going on his date. she was lovely and looked nice. I fell asleep and went to check on Clinton in his room. I knocked to see if I can go in. he didn't answer, which isn't like him.

I went in his room. he was on the fucking floor, BLEEDING. I cleaned his arm and wrapped it and cried. I held his arm and cried. he wasn't waking up.

I screamed and screamed for Christian. I was alone with my possibly dead brother. I kept crying not knowing what to do. if I let go of his arm, he could die.

*Clinton POV*

I woke up in the hospital. arm bandaged up, brother and Christian crying. dammit. they found me. I want to live on my own but it's hard with Mit being worried if I'm alive or not when he's awake.

I did this because she left. she saw what I look like in person and left. I gave the reservation to a couple and went home. Mit was asleep so I thought it'd be a perfect opportunity to pull a suicide attempt by self harm.

of course it fails and I'm back in the hospital. Mit asked why and i told him how she stood me up for my looks. he doesn't know about me and Christian when he's gone.

when Mit is gone, me and Christian get all touchy feely. usually starts with a cuddle, then leads to kiss then ends with sex. Christian called that off. I'm left with my right hand.

I get dismissed from the hospital and I go to my room when I'm home with the boys. they wanted explanation but I said "oh I'm tired" and they let me go to sleep.

they don't know that I actually just sit in my room and drink for a while. I looked at my wrist. it's so fucked on how deep it was. I'm sorry Mit. I really fucked up and I feel bad. my brother had to witness me almost die. if he didn't wake up n get me, I would probably be in hell.

*Mit POV*

Clinton is off in bed and I can't help but wonder, why he would do that. I know his depression is bad but I thought he'd hold on a bit longer. he is just young and deserves to live.

*Christian POV*

I think why he wants to do this is because I called off our little session. he deserves to be happy but with Jesse cheating, that made Clinton so much more worse. I just wish Clinton can hold on.