Harnessed Love

Summer dumps

Welcome to my new book. Based on real events. Names are changed. Please enjoy, I'll update weekly -Sage

P.S: photo is Felicity.

Sitting in my room, scrolling through Instagram, I realize my parents are arguing. I close my laptop and head downstairs and listen to what's happening. "The job is so stupid, nobody likes me there. It's like talking to a wall. Everything goes through one ear and out the other." My mom looks at my dad. "Then why don't you just leave? Switch schools. You don't have to stay at the high school level forever." My mom, her names Jennifer. She currently works at my high school. Mountain Ridge. It's a good school other than the fact that everyone there is two faced and the faculty literally sucks. She's hated it there for a while. "I can't leave Joe, Felicity can't survive there by herself." I look at my mom. "Mom I can be just fine. But if you move I move." My mom smiles and my dad sighs. "Whatever you decide to do babe, I'll support you." I leave the living room and go back to my space. I start to think about why I stay at Mountain Ridge, who I have there. I come to terms with the fact that I didn't really have anyone. I had a few friends but no one that would stay if I were to leave. Too bad summer is almost over.

***

Sitting in bible study, not wanting to be there I stare off into a trance on my phone. Out of no where my phone is pulled out of my hands, I look up and Mexican kid, y'all, thick black hair, has my phone. "What's your password?" I look at him confused with a bit of sass. "And what's it to you?" He smiles obviously thinking I'm joking. "Come on. What's the password." I hold out my hand and he gives me back my phone. I type in my password and hand it back. He doesn't let me see what he's doing but when he's done his phone vibrates with my number appeared on his screen. I roll my eyes and grab my phone. Walking out of the building. As I walk home I get messages from the number.

Unknown
Hi, I'm Julian.

Unknown
What school do you go too??

Unknown
How old are you?

Well I'm glad you know your name. I add his name into my contact information. I decide not to answer as I slid my phone it's my pocket. Relationships and boys were not something on my mind. I had one relationship. I wasn't allowed to date till this past year - my freshman year. And it was a total BUST. Let's just say. I found him doing this with someone you don't or SHOULDN'T do things with. Anyway. She ended up pregnant and I caught him in the act so I ended things. Needless to say. I didn't want anyone in my life in that way. I just wanted to be alone.
I get home and I check my phone again.

Julian
Are you going to ignore all my messages?

Julian
I don't mean to be annoying I just thought you could use a friend. You looked... sad.

Needless to say, he was right. I am sad. On a day to day basis. But that's nothing new for someone like me. I hated going to school. I hated going to this stupid church thing, my dad insisted on me doing it.. supposed to make me happier. It doesn't. I just wanted to start over. Do something new with myself. Meet new people. Just change.
I decide to answer.

Felicity.
Hi. I'm Felicity. I go to Mountain Ridge. You? I turn 15 in August. You? I'm not ignoring you just not good with texting.

I end it there and head straight to the kitchen. "Felicity I got a job at the Middle school." I look at my mom smiling. "Which one??" I'm excited for her but at the same time I don't want her to leave me. I can't do this without her. Even though I said I could. "It's Westbrook Middle School." I think about it for a moment and then realize it's the opposite direction of the high school. "Nice mom." I walk upstairs and look at my phone.

Julian
Makes sense. It's nice to meet you, you should switch to Westbrook it's so much better there. I just turned 15.

I nod at my phone not bothering to answer. I start to think about what it would be like to go to a different school where nobody knows me and I could just be a newer better version of me. I fall asleep to the thought of it.

***

"If you move I move. Remember?? I don't want to go to Ridge anymore mom, everyone there hates me anyway and the only close friend I have is a teacher and I swear she gets annoyed with me. Please mom. Please switch me." My mom looks at me with concern. "What makes you think nobody likes you?" I roll my eyes and place my hands on the counter. "Mom I literally come and sit with you everyday at lunch. I don't do anything else." Other than when I sneak off and smoke... but she doesn't need to know that. "Fine we will get you registered somewhere else. Preferably somewhere close." I smile and then think about the conversation I had with Julian the night before. "I want to go to Westbrook high." My mom looks at me. "Then that's where you will go." I smile as I realize I won't have to go back to my old school. To hell.
I run upstairs and go through my clothes and shoes and I figure out what I want to wear for registration. Not that it really mattered. Everything I own is black. That thought doesn't even matter as I'm going through crop top after crop top and smile with the fact that everything going to be different. I won't have to worry about who knows me. I won't have to continue to be that girl everyone wanted her to be. I won't be that girl who was hit by that one guy. I'll just be...

***

Registration was rearing its ugly head and I was more excited than ever. I couldn't wait. I stayed up all night out of excitement. I just my hair. My makeup. I did everything I could to make myself look good. Wanted to make a good impression my first sorta day.
Lines were long. Everyone knew people. Kids were laughing. People were giggling and I was .. standing. Standing there feeling so out of place. I hide my fear with a smile and follow my mom around the gym. This can't be that bad. It's just people. People your gonna have to talk to if you want friends. My anxiety was right. In order to make friends I'd have to talk. I'd have to make myself known and out there. Just not in a bad way.
Walking through tiger photos taken I feel my side being poked I turn and it's Julian. "Hey Felicity I want you to meet some friends of mine." I nod and smile, giving a small wave. "Okay." Julian points, "This is Ally." Short, red head, glasses. She waves smiling big. "This is Brenden." Wide, long hair, glasses. "This is Josh." Little Asian dude who comes up and hugs me. I hug back laughing a bit. "And then this is Shayne." I smile and he's looking at me bug eyed. He short but taller than me. Blonde fuck boy hair cut and joggers. Cool. "Nice to meet all you, I got to get going though see you around?" They all nod and wave by too me.
Getting home I have a bunch of notifications. This kid added me on everything and I had no idea who he was so I denied his multiple requests.
Laying in bed I've come to the terms that maybe this year won't be so bad after all I will actually have some pretty neat people to talk to. I mean Julian introduces me to his friends so I mean he might let me hang out with them. Who knows. I smile as I fall asleep.. I'm actually excited for school. For once.