Harnessed Love

New year. Scared me.

Hello! I'm back. The picture above is Emmett! Enjoy (:

My first day of school. It was... SCARY. Only because I knew people but they didn't remember me. Or my anxiety took over and it was like I didn't even exist. My second day went about the same. Let's just say my whole first week was dreadful. But you bet your bottom I went home with a smile on my face saying my day was great. I couldn't let my mom feel bad for leaving me. She was so worried about it.
I'm currently in my second week of school more people have started talking to me. And recently I got a message from an old friend asking if I'd like to sit with her group at lunch. At first I said I was busy. I didn't want to intrude but I actually just sat alone that day. I watched everyone hang out with their friends. I was eyeing this couple. They looked happy. I also bursted out crying that day when I got home. Working up the nerve to go and hang with the girl who invited me. Serena. To be quite frank here, I didn't remember her at all but according to her I was really good friends with her at one point. I remembered her boyfriend, Brandon. He was cool and we talked a bit growing up.
It is currently a Wednesday. I agreed to meet Serena so we could go to her group. I don't know what to expect! Do I freak out? Do I stay quite? Who the hell knows. Walking out to meet her in front of the cafeteria we smile and say hi. We don't say much. We get to the table and I awkwardly sit down looking at each one of the people there. There was Mexican looking dude who I recognized to be in my geometry class. His name was Luke. We flipped each other off like we did in math and laughed. Next to him sat Brendon holding Serena. They were cute together. Looking next to them, there was a guy with glasses and a girl with long blonde hair. They both seemed really quite and shy. Learned they're names were Shiann and her boyfriend Micheal. They both seem really sweet. Looking past them there was another couple. Brown haired guy with a reddish brown haired girl. She was sketching while her boyfriend was looking over the shoulder of someone else. Trevor and Sailor. Got it. Looking next to them and next to me is this blonde hair, brown eyed guy. He looks at me and smiles. "I like your outfit." I smile back, "Thank you." His hair was shaggy and oddly attractive. He had the greatest smile you could possibly imagine. Looking at him I didn't seem to notice anything around me. His name was Emmett. His name made me smile. "What are you playing?" He looks at his Nintendo and smiles. "Well you see. I'm a nerd. Im playing Pokémon." He chuckles and looks at me with that freaking amazing smile. "Nerd." He shoves my shoulder and we laugh. Sitting there I was quite. Everyone kept telling me sooner or later I'm going to be weird and myself before I knew it. Part of me didn't want to be myself but if they were willing to except me then I was also excited.
Lunch ended. I was walking with Emmett. "What's your next class?" I pull out my schedule and look. "I have English." He looks to see what building. "Here I'll walk you, my class isn't too far from it." I smile and nod for approval. He and I walk side by side all the way to the door. We don't take long to get there I mean my classroom was so close. He shoved my shoulder. "Bye Felicity I'll see you around maybe." I nod and wave bye heading into my classroom.

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Getting home I realized I was thinking about lunch. They were all so nice and I wanted to talk to them more. I made it my mission to sit with them again. I wanted to be around them. Him. But he didn't need to know that. I groan and I lay in bed. What is wrong with me?? Since when do I obsess over a guy? Nobody has ever gone through my head this much but I refuse to discuss that. I utterly refuse.
"Felicity get down here!" I drag myself down the stairs. "Yeah dad?" He looks at me and than at his phone. "According to your English teacher you have been zoned out this past week. Is everything okay? Do we need to talk?" I look over at my mom sitting on the couch. "Felicity your suppose to be doing better here not worse." "I am doing better, just I haven't felt good recently is all." My mom and dad look at each other. "Just please let us know if you need anything." I nod running back upstairs. I look at my phone.

Emmett ;)
Are you going to come with Say, Trev and I tomorrow?

I smile excited. I still haven't asked. I go back down stairs. "Mom." She looks at me. "What?" Looking at my phone, "Can I hang out with some friends from school tomorrow?" She smiles "You made friends!!" Oh my gosh... Felicity made a friend how wowing. I roll my eyes. "Yeah and I wanna spend time with them outside of school." Please say yes, please say yes... "okay, but be home at like 9:30 latest." I WASN'T EVEN GOING TO ARGUE. I ran back upstairs plop in my bed and smile at my phone as I respond.

Felicity
I'm so down to go. Is the mall all we are going to be doing?

Emmett ;)
Probably. Nothing big (:

Felicity
Sounds good meh dude.

I put my phone down and dance around. I'm so excited, I haven't hung out with people since like 5th grade... this going to be well needed. I really hope I don't blow it up... I hope things go as planned.