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Namjoon - I Need To End It All

SUICIDE ⚠
DON'T READ IF YOU THINK YOU CAN'T HANDLE THIS KIND OF STUFF!

Namjoon was sitting in his bedroom, devastated at his performance lately.
He had failed his Hyungs, and his Dongsaengs.
They had given him the "Silent treatment" because he had Shouted at them.
He.. Didn't even remember for what he had Shouted at them.

All he knew, is that his world was crumbling.
After the first day of the silent treatment, he couldn't write any lyrics.
He always got inspiration from his Hyungs and Dongsaengs.

Yet, now that they wouldn't speak to him, he had lost.
'Please, speak to me. I'm sorry!' Pleaded Namjoon, with tears in his eyes.
Jin just simply ignored him.
He completely broke down, and ran to his room, sobbing quietly.

Jin looked back at him, running out.
'Should we talk to him? He's really not well' He said.
'No, he needs to learn. Just for another 3 days, then we can start talking to him.

Namjoon felt completely unloved and worthless.
He hadn't come out in a week, now starving, and thirsty.
He had locked his door, and at the end of the Silent treatment, the others would knock on his door, wanting to come in.
He wouldn't reply.
He couldn't reply.

His voice was gone from the lack of water, anything liquid to be honest.
And even when he tried to talk, it would come out very raspy, and Husky.
He had been crying, for days, feeling more worthless and unloved by day.

He tried to write lyrics, but nothing came to his mind.
He crumpled up another peice of paper, and threw it on the ground.
He put his head into his hands, and let some tears fall from his eyes.

A soft knock on the door.
His eyes glanced to the door.
'Joonie, please. Open the door..' Said Jin's soft voice.
Namjoon decided that this was it.
He wouldn't be here to bother them anymore.

He got up, and put another, more firm lock on the door.
It closed with a click.
'Joon?' Said Jin from the other side of the door, now slightly concerned.
Namjoon went over to the window, opening it, and looking down.
It was a very long drop, considering he was on the 3rd floor.

He was about to jump out, when he heard his door being smashed open.
'N-Namjoon?' Said Jin's voice.
Namjoon looked back, tears in his eyes.
He climbed back in, and sat on his bed, sobbing.
'I'm so sorry.. Hyung, please. Forgive me' He said, sobbing.

Jin quickly rushed over to Namjoon, and embraced him.
'We're so sorry for ignoring you.. We'll never do it again. Were you stressed because of shouting at us?' Asked Jin.
Namjoon nodded in embarrassment.
What led him to near - suicide?

'I'm so sorry Hyung...' He said, not sobbing anymore, but still not completely happy.
'It's OK, Don't worry about it.. But never... Think about doing that again'

So.. Yeah 🤷‍♀️.
It's not extremely detailed, but.. Honestly I don't know.
Hope you liked this chapter!
I need to start writing those 10 stories...

I have a great vacation so far 😅