When i opened my eye's it was dark outside and the only light from where i was laying was the tv glow in the next room.I was nervous that it was my dad in the next room but then i thought of how stupid that sound's even to myselfI can;t believe that he could manage to make me scared around him and then i just thought of how much i reallly would like to beat him like he does to me .
I crept to the next room only to find out it was my mother passed out on the couch and to think that this is my mom's life makes a bottomless pit in my stomachShe should be living a diffrent life not the one she isRight now all she basically is doing is shaving years off her life . ,And what scares me more is that one day i could come home and she could be dead on the couchTear's well in my eye's as i think about it.Although she makes the choices she does i still feel closer to my mom than i will ever feel to my dad.,Because he know's that he is just sitting here knowing full well that he is sitting on that couch watching her waist away. ,And that's more awful than what he's doing to himself becuse he is supposed to love her,he's supposed to love me to.,But he's just so .........so high all the time i don,t even think he know's what's going on.So you know me i wipe away the tear's that have started to fall and i grab a blanket and lay it across my mom.Then i go check and see if my dad is home,thankfully he's out in search of his next high and won't be home for hour's so i quickley get in the shower and get out as fast as possible and then go nto the kitchen to try and find something to eat.After that i scrounge whatever clean clothes i can find for toorrow and do my homework so that one day when i graduate i'll be able to leave this place and go to college(i failed to mention i am a AP student and would be the first in my family to graduate.)Then i grab my blanket and haed out the door to the familiar place i kow all to well.The brick wall i call home.
