Conceal, Don't Feel

Chapter 1

I looked out my window, knowing that I was high enough not to be seen by any wandering eyes below.

I could see everyone running around, preparing for tomorrow’s festivities. Ribbons were hanging from every structure. Banners were hanging everywhere, all of which, contained my silhouette.

I sighed and closed the window. I plopped on my bed, staring at the ceiling.

Tomorrow is a day all… about... me. A shiver went up my spine. The day I have dreaded since I was litte has finally come. I had turned 21 a little while ago meaning that tomorrow, I was to be coronated.

My parents died when I was 18, resulting in me becoming queen at 21 years of age. I wouldn’t have a problem for it if it wasn’t for the cold.

No, it wasn’t the cold outside, it was summer. It was the cold inside, that threatens to break free at every waking moment, that I had a problem with.

Ever since I hurt my little sister, Anna, when we were kids, I hardly ever left my room. She would always knock on my door and ask me to play. I wanted to desperately, but I couldn’t risk hurting her. She eventually stopped trying.

That was the only thing I’m excited for, seeing Anna’s face. I had three paintings in my room. One of Anna and me as little kids, one of Anna as a preteen, and one of our parents before they died. I couldn’t wait to see the beautiful young woman that I was sure she had become.

There was a sudden knock at the door.

“Yes?” I asked.

“Dinner is ready, your majesty.” a servant said.

I stood up and walked to the door. I took a deep breath and opened the door, just enough to retrieve the tray.

“Thank you.” I smiled as I took the tray that she handed me.

I silently closed the door. I sighed and walked to the desk in the corner of the room. I set the tray on the desk and sat down.

I have been eating in my room since I was 15. There is even a bathroom connected to my room that only I can use. I have learned to clean everything, no one else can since there is always ice everywhere.

I took the top off the tray to reveal a steaming bowl of chicken soup with root vegetables, a dinner roll, a steamed potato, and a mug of hot chocolate.

I ate dinner quickly, saving the hot chocolate for last. I loved the thick, rich taste of hot chocolate. It’s heat spreads through my body, bringing comfort to my body. I sighed. I missed the discussions my mother and I would have over a nice cup of hot chocolate.

I was sitting in my chair, staring at the paintings, when there was another knock at the door.

The servant had come back. I gave her the tray and dishes. When I closed the door, I walked to the bathroom, took a shower, and got ready for bed. I collapsed on my bed, exhausted. I closed my eyes and fell into a deep sleep.

**I was standing in front of rows of seats, all filled with people. All of them staring at me. My heart started pounding in my chest. I looked at my hands. I didn’t have gloves on and I was holding the artifacts. I was being coronated. I started breathing heavily.

“Don’t feel, don’t feel, don’t feel” I chanted in my head.

It was no use. The artifacts quickly froze over and everyone gasped. I dropped the objects and they shattered on the ground.

Anna was suddenly in front of me.

“Anna, stay away from me.” I said. I put up my hands, slowly backing away. A bolt of ice shot from my hands, turning Anna completely to ice.

I screamed. Ice started spreading spreading around me, on the floor and up the walls.

“Monster!” Everyone started screaming.

“No! I didn’t mean to! I- I’m sorry.” I yelled, tears finally spilling.

All of the people froze and I started screaming more.

“This is all your fault,” a dark voice yelled, “You’re a monster!”

“No, I’m not!” I yelled back in tears.

“You can’t hide from yourself, Elsa!”

Then all of the people started shattering one by one until only Anna was left.

“Anna, please, no.” I cried, rushing towards her.

I touched Anna’s hand and she shattered.

“Anna, No!”**

I bolted awake, panting, tears falling. I was breathing heavily and it felt like my heart was going to beat out of my chest.

Ice was creeping up the walls. I had lost control.

I couldn’t be a monster. I stay away from as many people as possible.

I got up and took a shower. I got out, dried off and put on my robe. I sat in front of my mirror and started putting on my make-up. I put a pinkish purple on my eyelids and a red on my lips.

I opened my closet and put on the dress that was made specially for this day. It was a lovely turquoise dress with patterns embroidered around the bottom and on the bodice. The dress had black sleeves and a long purple cape that dragged behind me on the floor. I added my own touch, gloves, of course. I couldn’t go out without them.

I got my breakfast, barley eating because of pure dread. I walked to the library, thankfully no one saw me.

I walked over to a window at all the people who would soon be way to close for comfort. “Don’t let them in, Don’t let them see." I resite to myself.

I walked over to a painting of my father during his coronation. I took off my gloves, "Be the good girl you always have to be." I need to stay under control.

I looked down at the candle stick and jewlrey box on the table under the painting. "Conceal," I picked them up in my bare hands "Don't feel," I turned around, pretending to be at my coronation, "Put on a show."

The objects started freezing over, quickly. I turned around and quickly ser down the items. "Make one wrong move and every one will know." I remind myself.

I gave myself a pep talk trying to maintain control. "But, it's only for today."

I slip on my gloves. "It's agony to wait" 

I walk to the doors and approach the maids. "Tell the guards to open up the gates." I say.

I remind myself once again to keep it under control. I open up a door and walked onto the balcony over the  people.

Its' time.