Winter Spider (SLOW UPDATES SORRY)

bucky, I miss you

Now I'm sitting in my cell thinking about Bucky and wondering what he has been doing these days. I haven't seen him in 2 years. I miss my big brother.

I can only imagine he's living is the life we planned for each other. He would find his best freind Steve. The only reason we knew he was alive is because HYDRA was telling us about these mighty heros the avngers.

And I would live with him because all of my relatives are dead. We both knew that they were dead. they would often taunt us with our loved ones. Saying that we would never see them again. Somehow I always knew they were right, I mean why else would I still be in this cell alone.

The last time I saw him i was helping him escape this horrible place. Though after all the times they brainwashed me. But I will never forget Bucky or,the first time i ever met him. It was 5 years ago, I had been there for 8 years already.

Flashback,

Now I'm sitting in the bright white lab. I know exactly what they are going to do. I have been with hydra for the past 8 years. I'm 10 years old now. I have gotten used to the tourter it happens everyday.

But this time the room is different. Yes they have the shot to make me stronger, but they have more, at least more variety of touted devices than usual. After tourter one day they told me my body is 40% scars. Thats twice as many as the winter soldier. I have them everywhere on my legs, arms, stomach, chest, Back, and even one going from my right eye over my nose and down to my chin. I have so many scars I have 2 that were branded into my body, one says "property of hydra"on my chest. Then on my stomach is my code name "winter spider". I have too many gunshot and stab wounds to count. I cant count them because they are every where even places I cant see. I have more scars than the winter solder. Think about it, I'm 10 and he is from the 40s. You can only imagine what they did to me. To bad for me I remember every second of the tourter. Though I cant remember anything from before hydra. They took all of those memories from me.

Either way I knew what was happening I had left a witness from my last mission. So I'm getting punished. I'm stronger than the solder and already killed over 300 people. At least that's what they told me. So I should be used to killing and not care, especally after they say the trigger words then I'm a mindless soldier or spider as they put it. When apparently I left one witness they had to find and kill. I thought she was dead I really did, bit they don't care. As I'm thimking all of this I felt the trail of red hot pain. But I can't, scream or cry. That is a weakness, and weakness is punishable.

That day they tourted me until I was almost dead. Then I knew I had many new scars. After I was almost passed out they threw me into a room I didn't reconize as mine. There was a figure on a bed, I saw his arm once he started walkimg towards me. The winter solder. As he picked me up I let the darkness takr he away.

End of flashback.

After that I stars quietly sobbing. I have to be carefull though because crying is a weakness. And weekness is punishable. Unfoutnaly through my attempts to be quiet someone heard me. They came in my cell and draged me out by the hair as I scurry to keep up with the man. I guess my touture starts early today. Though it will probably be longer and worse than any normal day. Yeah this has happend everyday for the past 13 years.

I miss you big brother

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