insta | chanlix (COMPLETED)

twentyeight

phone call between felix and his sister, rachel
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"felix you're overreacting. you like this boy. he likes you. you went on dates. kissed, all that jazz. why you freaking out?"

"because i've dated one person and that was jisung and we all know how that went. i don't wanna fuck this up. i really love him. he's doing so much for me already and i feel like i won't be able to return all that."

"look. when i dated my husband in high school, i did so much for him. i took care of him and gave him so much love in every way possible. i was whipped for him but what you're going through, is more than whipped. this boy is fucking dead for you. he's probably the type to literally die for you. i think this chan is someone you're gonna grow old with. i mean he's taking you to where you two fucking grew up for crying out loud. now stop being a pussy and talk to him."

felix looked down at his wet and muddy hands.

"you're right. i'm ignoring the boy i love because i'm a pussy. but what if his crush is only temporary? what if he started to hate me once we start to date?"

"if his crush was temporary, would he really want to fly you overseas for a date? take you out on a dinner to a fancy restaurant? i think he wants to marry you someday."

felix knew everything his sister said was true but he still just couldn't let it set in. he's loved chan since 3racha first debuted but he never imagined dating one of the members (apart from jisung but that was before they debuted). especially the one who knows that he masturbates to him.

"yeah. i need to talk to him. i need to see him. thanks sis. i'll talk to you soon. goodbye. i love you."

"good luck felix. i love you too, bye."

felix got up from the wet grass, covered in mud and soaked to the bone. he had ran away from his home for just a small walk to get some air but ended up breaking down under a tree in a small park. he needed to go see chan. he needed to apologise. so he ran. he ran miles towards the elders house in the pouring rain. he didn't care though. he was dead for the boy.