Rain was pouring over me, making me drenched at this late hour. The last cigarette I had kept me warm though. I was standing in front of her apartment. The remaining sanity I had left in me had been washed away by this dark hour's mist. My emotion was indefinable almost like a sleeping volcano ready to erupt. I entered an elevator and pressed the fifth floor button. After the 30 second the elevator came to a halt. I was breathing heavily, my mind was foggy. I could sense the heaviness of my heart. I rang her doorbell, by each second it was becoming harder to breathe. Then she opened her front door, standing in front of me wearing a creamy color night gown. The lobby's dim light was illuminating her delicate face. Her eyes were little red; she didn't expect me here, I could see a little bewilderment in her mischievous eyes but she composed herself well and asked "Why are you here Dhruv?" Her eyes were boring into mine, asking answers which I never gave her. I wanted to say I am here to confess my desire for her or I am here to apologize for my weird behavior. I wanted to say I am here to acknowledge my undying love for her, like how much she meant to me, but I found all those words were stuck in my throat; they did not come out. Then something happened, I saw a single tear dropped from her eyes and it rested to her rosy cheek. That was it. At this moment I needed a single dramatic push and from her side an intense pulling. I closed the gap between us and touched her lips with mine. Whatever had happened was not her fault. I needed her to believe that, it was all me. She deserved better, and I knew staying with her forever was just a mere illusion and life taught me how to kill illusions. After a few second she kissed me back with same intensity, with same passion and hunger, like we were imprinting this memory in our soul so we can cherish those few minutes forever. But fate was cruel wasn't it? I had pulled away first. Her eyes were still closed. She was breathing heavily, her lips were trembling; I could feel my heartbeat drumming in my ear. Then I saw that, the diamond engagement ring in her hand, mocking me, letting me know I was too late. I had to go from here; someone already claimed her. I could not say how I felt instead I gave her a good- bye kiss; our first and last kiss. Before she opened her eyes, I silently proclaimed those dreadful three words "let me go Sneha! "And I stormed out from her front door. In elevator my heart cried and said to my ear you meant "I love you Sneha and I will forever".
