Strange

A Strange Comfort

Heechul stares past the kitchen and beyond to an unseen spot on the wall. The group has been actively touring and promoting their new album for two consecutive weeks. He is now more than irritated and beyond tired. He feigns a smile as two the members breeze by with a quick hello. One of them off handedly mentions that Eeteuk is up in his room and it was about time their leader got a little break.

The slender man pushes off his elbows and meanders up their flat's staircase again. He pauses to inspect a stain on the floor before noting he would tell one of the others to clean it up later. The door to Eeteuk's room is open partially and Heechul just pushes it open completely.

Eeteuk is drying off his blonded hair. He has just finished his shower. He glances over his shoulders to see his younger companion sauntering through the entry. He asks Heechul if he needs anything. Heechul shrugs and goes and sits on Eeteuk's bed. He tells Eeteuk there is a stain in the hall carpet that needs to be cleaned. The leader just makes a sound of agreement.

Heechul watches as Eeteuk takes off his towel and throws it off to the side. He reaches out and barely manages to touch the man's bare thigh. Eeteuk turns to look at Heechul, his expression unreadable. He doesn't move from the touch as he usually does. Instead, he looks at the younger with a noncommital gaze.

The brunette continues to graze his fingers over Eeteuk's bare skin. The flesh feels like silk and sin. Heechul wonders distantly if the softness would burn him through to his bones. Would he be left with nothing more than a charred form with only remnants of his original self in tact?

Heechul asks Eeteuk if he's had sex with the other member recently. Eeteuk makes a short nod, reminding Heechul that he had better cease bringing home too many new young ladies. His reputation is starting to precede him and Eeteuk is getting tired of covering up the situation. Heechul continues to drag his fingernails over Eeteuk's bare thigh. He tells Eeteuk the women are compensation for things he can't have.

Eeteuk sighs softly at that response and sits down naked beside Heechul. He asks Heechul why he actually is here. Heechul just tilts his head and tells Eeteuk he's tired of waiting. He's tired of battling back and forth. He just wants Eeteuk to finish it so he finally knows.

The elder makes a short nod before standing up and closing the door. He locks it and then turns to look at the slender youth still sitting on the bed. He tells Heechul to get out of his clothes. The smaller pulls of his t-shirt and then gets out of his jeans. There is no fanfare, no intimacy. Just a simple act of removing articles off his body.

He stands naked in front of Eeteuk, his hands on his hips. Eeteuk approaches but does not touch Heechul. Instead, they stare at each other. There is electricity crackling in the air. It is dangerous and volatile. It feels like dark, forbidden dreams. Eeteuk raises his hand slowly and then grips Heechul's shoulder. He uses a hidden amount of force and Heechul lands on his back on the bed.

He does not have time to react and Eeteuk is on him. There are hands gripping and pulling. Heechul's limbs sting with little strikes of pressure as Eeteuk secures him underneath. Heechul's hands come free and they dig into Eeteuk's back. Nails draw angry red lines down porcelain skin.

Eeteuk's mouth covers Heechul's and it is more aggressive, more tainted than the first and only time he's kissed the other. There is a battle for dominance as the two begin to strain, the other trying to gain the upper hand. Heechul bites Eeteuk's lower lip and the elder hisses in irriation.

Heechul's body is flipped and he is face down in the bed. There is something wet and cold at his opening. He grits his teeth and curses at Eeteuk angrily as the man pushes his fingers into Heechul, meeting resistance and heat. The brunette bites into the pillow as fingers are pulled free. He spits at Eeteuk to hurry up, that he is already tired of waiting.

Eeteuk forces Heechul's head back down as he pushes in. There is an overwhelming tightness and the burn causes the brunette to cry out in pain. He chokes down the next sob by burrowing his manicured nails into the pristine sheets. Eeteuk does not let up. He thrusts in and out quickly, the sting of understanding riding right up to Heechul's skull.

The younger feels Eeteuk's body and knows what the other member can never know. He knows the power, the fury and the possession that resides behind those glittering eyes. He knows the ferocity and the strict dominance that hides beneath gentle lips.

Heechul's air exhales suddenly when Eeteuk withdraws. He cries out but is turned rapidly. His back hits the bed and his legs are around Eeteuk's waist. He is filled again in one hard push. Eeteuk demands he open his eyes. Heechul swallows and forces his lids to part. He sees Eeteuk's face staring down at him. He sees a thousand unspoken emotions. He sees anger, fear, denial. He sees acceptance, understanding and...

Heechul wonders if he's imagined the last emotion. He wonders if it's shimmering vibrantly in his eyes. Because it is all he can feel now. Nothing is left hidden from Eeteuk because in this moment, Eeteuk has hidden nothing from him.

He comes violently, head slamming back on the pillow. His nails dig beyond Eeteuk's flesh, leaving little streaks of blood in their wake. Eeteuk bites back his own scream. He shakes and collapses on top of Heechul. They lay in their crumbled pile saying nothing to one another. After a few more moments, Eeteuk pushes off Heechul and pulls out.

Both men are bruised and bloody. The white of Eeteuk's sheets are stained with pink and small red droplets. Heechul waits for Eeteuk to stand or to tell him to leave. Instead, Eeteuk lays down beside Heechul. The youth blinks before turning on his aching side to look at the elder.

Eeteuk tells Heechul that he will be with him even after they have torn each other part. Even after they have devoured each other's souls and they are nothing left but shells of their former selves. Heechul asks Eeteuk if he will stay forever then, because Heechul is already half gone. The elder nods.

For both of them then, that knowledge is a strange comfort.