Real Love

Chapter Three

I continued to stare at him while he smirked at the teacher. “That’s a warning for all of you” the teach grunted. They all laughed and stood around the class, allowing the teacher to continue talking about the rules. I had stopped staring at the boys as they scanned their eyes around the building and at everyone in front them. Shortly after their late entrance, the teacher allowed us to have the last half a lesson looking around and messing with the equipment, but I wasn’t interested so I sat on the seats that were around the edge inside the gym. I saw as the group of boys got acquainted with the so called popular girls. I frowned once I noticed that the girls were already hitting on them.  The lesson finished and everyone scattered out of the building as quickly as they could so they could get a break before the next two lessons. I met up with Paige who was one of closest friends.

“Where have you been? I was waiting for you this morning” she questioned me while following me to my locker.

“Sorry, I walked to school since I didn’t want to catch the bus.” I smiled at her weakly as I was tired and still thinking about seeing the beach this morning and how I felt towards it.

“Yeah I didn’t catch my bus either, my brother dropped me off” she giggled.

“Oh is your brother home?”

“Yeah, he came home about two weeks ago.” She fiddled with the ends of her hair.

“Ah, how is he? Well?” I shut my locker and faced towards her, ready to walk out and sit down at  a table.

“Yeah, he’s fine. He loved Paris and wants to take me there one day.” She started walking alongside me. Paige’s brother Marcus had gone away for a year to travel around parts of the world.

We continued talking as we walked outside about what Marcus came back with and how he met a girl over there that he really liked. We sat at our usual spot and I spotted the group of boys that had walked in late into the sports class. I noticed Paige was talking weirdly and looked at her and started laughing at her, she was also staring at the group of boys that I was looking at.

“But…um..he says he likes her a lot..” she trailed off. I giggled at her.

“You’ve said that, now stop starring, you’ll make it obvious we’re sussing them out.”

“They’re like the hottest guys we’ve had here! Please tell me they’re in our year!” She squealed.

“Yes they are!” I giggled but couldn’t take my eyes off Spencer.

“Oh gosh, please let one of them… all of them be in some of my classes!” She giggled.

Recess when past in a flash, mostly because we were so entertained by the group of boys that were messing around and we found that so entertaining. The next two classes I had before lunch was music. Music was most probably my favourite class. I loved when I got the chance to play during class time, I usually just down at the piano and played and wouldn’t stop. Playing the piano always made me happy. But this time, it was all the basic rules and going through the term with the teacher. The same thing happened at lunch with Paige and myself sitting together chatting about everything and anything. Finally my last two lessons came around which was maths, I was generally good with maths but today I wasn’t in the mood but on the bright side, a few of the new boys were in my class, Toby and Quinn. This was what made me like my maths class, they were so entertaining with each other and they just seemed in their own world, so care free.  The final bell rang and I made my out of the classroom, heading straight to my locker; I debating on if I wanted to walk or catch the bus. I decided against walking as the quicker I got home, the more relax and at ease I would feel and the thought of being on the beach made me want to get home even quicker.

I got onto the transit bus and took a seat in the middle, which I got a two seater to myself. I was very anti-social when it came to catching the bus, some many little kids up the front screaming and squealing at each other always gave me a headache. Just wait, next year you can drive yourself. I was lost in thought about how I could drive to school when I almost missed my stop. I quickly hurried off the bus and went straight down the street to my house. No one was home like usual and I wasted no time changing and heading to the beach.  Minutes later I was heading outside towards my favourite area, I had a book to read and a towel to sit on; perfect way to end the first day of school I thought to myself. I found my spot that I usually had on the beach, not close to the water but a fair way down the beach away from the house; I set up and began to read, feeling the sun starting bring its rays on my legs, hopefully giving me a tan. I was heavily getting into the book I was reading when a close sound of laughing and chuckles bought my attention away from the novel; Spencer and his gang. My heart starting beating faster when I realized they were heading this way, my way! I quickly made myself look busy by pretending to read. The boys were making some joke about being away and staying late; I wasn’t entirely sure and it confused me but I was happy that they kept walking instead of stopping near me; the slowly found a spot where they chucked their towels down and a couple took off their shirts and headed towards the water, that’s when my heart sank. No. Do not do it. Just stay. I felt sad as I wished I was there, not necessarily with them, but there in the water. Without thinking I stood up and started walking towards the ocean, not towards the boys but just a straight line from where I had been siting. I’m not sure what I was doing but I let myself walk to see how far I would go. What are you doing Olivia? Stop. You know better. The voice inside my head was having no effect on whatever I was doing. I was slowly starting to panic when I saw how close I was getting to the water, I couldn’t go in there, not yet, not now, not ever and that was when I stopped. As soon as the water touched me I broke. I felt the lump in my throat starting to form, my eyes getting watery and my whole body was beginning to shake. Even after three years of what happened, it was still too soon for me to even think about entering the water. The tears started trickling down my face and that’s what caused me to turn around and collect my things. You have no one but yourself to blame for that little stunt you just did. I shook my head as the tears starting falling faster and my pace was quickening to the fact that I just about hit someone when a hand held in front of me stopped me in my tracks.

“Whoa, hey. Are you alright?” I could tell from the voice and the direction I walked in it was one Spencers friends.  I still had tears slowly coming out and my eyes must have been red.

“Yep…” I managed to quietly whisper out while adding a small nod.

“Are you sure? You don’t look okay?” I felt my face go red as I noticed Spencer and the rest of the boys coming out of the water. I took one last glance at the boy in front of me and walked past him and as soon as I pasted him I began running back home, wanting to get away from an awkward situation and the problem that made me break down.  I felt so stupid and ashamed of myself that I didn’t even wait to get home before I started crying. I ran into the house ignoring whoever was there and straight to my room, slamming the door shut behind me, then collapsing onto my bed allowing more silent slow tears to fall down my face.