Shoto~?

Part 7

⚠️TRIGGER WARNING THIS CHAPTER HAS TO DEAL WITH SOMEONE COMITTING SUICIDE ⚠️
[Deku goes home]
Now katcchan feels fucking bad. I'm such a bad person. I should just fucking die. I don't deserve to be alive. I make everyone feel like that.  Todoroki Katchan how many more people will I hurt. No one will care if I'm gone... It would be better that way.. If I was dead I couldn't hurt anyone...

[Deku grabs a knife a bottle of painkillers]

I should leave them a note... so they can remember the good times...

[Dekus note reads]
—I'm sorry Todoroki. I made you hurt and I'm really sorry. Katcchan I'm sorry I hurt you too. I shouldn't have let you see I knew I would hurt someone else. It's going to be okay I'm dead I can't hurt anyone. I love you Todoroki. Thank you for being my boyfriend and caring for me. Goodbye babe I will love you forever.  Katcchan thank you for pushing me to be the best I could be. I'm glad I met someone like you.  Aizawia thank you for being a good sensi. Thank you to the rest of the class for being so kind. Thank you Mom. You raised me the best I could be. Even when dad left you still tried your hardest to help me. I love you mom. I'm sorry I have to leave you alone but I've been hurting on the inside for a long time. It's no ones fault. I'm sorry I know this is going to be hard letting go of me but I know you'll push through. Mom your the strongest woman in the world I know you will get through me leaving. Everything's going to be fine. Mom since this is the last thing you'll have of mine I want to come clean. I know you don't support this but I'm bisexual and polysexual. I hope you accept me one day. Thank you for raising me as good as you did. All might. Thank you. You believed in me a quirkless wannabe hero. I'm glad you took me under your wing. After I'm gone take notes about old and new upcoming hero's for me. I'm sorry that I have to go. I really hope that one day we can all see each other in heaven. I'm going to live with the angels I'm going to be okay. I love all you so much. This is so I don't hurt you.
Loving goodbye from yours truly,
Izuku (Deku) Midoria—

[Deku buys a bottle of jack danials from a guy on the street and takes the knife and painkillers to his doorm room]

I guess this is goodbye...

[Deku opens the jack danials and pain killers. He takes just enough so he won't be able to feel the knife. He takes the whole bottle of painkillers and washes them down with half of the jack danials.]

I'm starting to not feel anything...I have to say goodbye to Ochocco...

[Deku takes his phone out and dials Ochoccos number]

"Hey Ochocco. I just wanted to say goodbye before I left forever. I love you and it's not because of you. I've just been h-hurting."
"Deku what are you talking about? Are you okay?? I'm coming to get you. Where are you?"
"D-dorms goodbye."

I'm going to chug the rest of this then I'll finally be where I can't hurt anyone.

[Deku takes out another bottle of painkillers and washes it down with the rest of the jack.]

I can't feel anything....

[Deku takes the knife and cuts all the way up one of his arms before passing out]

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~sorry for the dark chapter the next one isn't going to be as dark as this one. I love you my pop tarts 💖💖✌🏻~

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