constellations

5- cute

Yoongi is currently having a crisis. Yoongi is now almost in tears. Yoongi is now fanboying. Yoongi is now having a heart attack.

"He sent a wink emoji he sent a wink emoji he sent a wink emoji he sent a wink emoji." He constantly repeated, his cheeks burning red. He repeated this over and over again, not sure what to do with himself. Hoseok's hitting on him! This cute, perfect, and gorgeous man is hitting on him!

Yoongi is imagining things. He had to be! But... he's not... this can't be happening! What?! He laughed nervously to himself as he breathed, calming himself down as much as he could before realising something.

"So... I'm... gay?" He asked himself, his brain responding with a definite "yes. You fucking idiot" but he still finds this whole situation difficult to understand.

Yoongi is not gay, but he's not straight. So what is he? This might take a while...

Hoseok- hey, you okay? Did I say something wrong yoongles..?

ME- nah, just got a little embarrassed hehe

Hoseok- Ah Okay, have you never had a complement like that before?

ME- no...

Hoseok- well that's surely surprising! You're cute Yoongi! I can't believe no one has ever spoken to you before... they're missing out...

ME- well... actually there's a reason that people don't talk to me...

Hoseok- huh? What could that be?

ME- well... uh haha... I've never actually talked about this to anyone before, no one else, not even my family knows about this... but I can trust you... right?

Hoseok- totally! Dude don't worry about it, you can talk to me :)

ME- okay... well... ever since I was 12, I shut myself off to the world, well, not literally, I stopped talking to people, mostly because I had no one to talk to... but whenever someone did talk to me, it was either to laugh at me or ask me a random question, An every-day question kinda thing. So, I became anti-social, I felt like nobody cared about me, like I was nobody. A nobody. So I changed what I was like, and I made my personality more stubborn, I became more threatening kind of(?) I wanted people to keep their distances from me. I always get flustered, and more words don't work... my cheeks go red and I get stuck, it's like I don't work anymore. So I act different. I act kind of scary? Someone you don't want to talk to... so now absolutely no one talks to me apart from my friend Namjoon and you! So it's really nice to have you as a friend now hehe! But, when I'm not outside, I'm this cute, little innocent person who loves kittens and snuggles with his plushie whilst watching Netflix and eating pot noodles. I'm that kind of person, I'm not stubborn, I'm innocent, not stubborn... but Namjoon doesn't know that. He just understands me... that's all...

Hoseok- woah, dude, that's hard... i'm so sorry... but I understand you completely! I have about... huh... 2 best friends and then another 2 friends? But I've never met anyone like you. You're really understanding and I... hehe... I really like u lol

ME- haha thanks... it means a lot to me...

Hoseok- i'm sure it does lol. So, if you ever want to talk, just text, call, or come visit me! My room is 4 and I think you know where I stay lol! The apartment opposite "serendipity"!

ME- Ahah, sure!

Hoseok- okie, by the way, I'm not working yet, so just come over whenever. I'll recognise your face, it's a cute one ☺️

ME- Thanks 😊

Yoongi calmed himself down, now pretty sure that he was hitting on him, but at least he's not some sort of rapist, he's really kind, understanding, and cute. His personality is perfect, and he feels relieved to finally have told someone about his duality.

Yoongi put his phone down, the conversation now finished. He didn't realise what time it was, it was already 2... and he was hungry...

He stood up, pushing his blankets to the side and going to check how much money he had in his wallet. Thankfully, enough for a little dinner... and a lot of snacks!

He smiled to himself, already thinking of the sweets he's going to buy, making a shopping list in his mind.

He went to get changed, wearing his everyday black outfit (how colourful).

It made Yoongi a little sad when he looked at himself in the mirror. He saw himself in a cute yellow onesie, now in a depressing black outfit. It made him feel like he was attending a funeral or something.

After putting on his t-shirt and black trousers, he slipped his long black coat on, making sure he took his wallet and phone with him.

The shopping mall was just past Hoseok's place, he presumed, knowing where "serendipity" is. But... he didn't want to look up at the apartment like he was some stalker trying to see Hoseok.

So, he just passed, eyeing the look of the apartment and then moving his eyes back to the path he was waking on, not wanting to bump into anything or anyone.

He thought of his shopping list again... but soon realised it was slightly pointless since when he gets there, he'll probably just buy whatever looks eye catching. And he'll probably forget by the time he gets there anyways.

-Hoseok POV-

"So yeah! I've met someone really cute!" Hoseok giggled, sat on his window ledge, watching the cars and people pass by. "Ah, that's good. So... you like him? Have you got a little crush?" The person on the other side of the phone laughed jokingly. "W-what?! No!"

"Yeah, yeah hobi. Totally."

"Shut up Kookie. You can't say anything." Hoseok fought back.

"Excuse me? I do not have a crush on him!" The person named Kookie argued. "Oh come on! I saw you looking at him, his legs, his pink hair, his eye smile... you were mesmerised! Falling in love with my best-friend... hmph! Who do you think you are?" Hoseok played, his voice still cute, he was obviously joking. "W-what?! I told you!-"

"I don't mind! I don't mind! Fall in love with anyone you want, anyways, I can't blame you haha." Hoseok admitted. "Whatever, smartass."

Hoseok laughed, looking out of the window again. But suddenly, someone caught his eye. The man had bright mint hair which stood out like crazy. Everyone walking past had black or brown hair, but he had mint hair-

Wait.

"Jungkook I'll call you back." Hoseok said quickly, "oh okay bye-" And Hoseok ended it. "Yoongi..." he whispered under his breath. "You look... so different..."