Sunflower 🌻 Depressed! Eren x Levi

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Author's Note: This is my first fanfic so I'm not really good at it, but I'll try and improve my writing and my English. Also at first it may be kind of shitty. Anyway, hope you enjoy! 😊

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『Eren's P.O.V.』

It sometimes angers me that I was born without my consent, that I was forced to live and to feel things. Sadly, running from this is hard, so I have to do it, whether I enjoy it or not.

The clock alarm went off making me groan in annoyance as I stopped it. This only meant that I had to go to school. Again.

I got out of the bed and went to brush my teeth and face. I dressed in a plain black sweater, to cover the scars that filled my arms. I traced them with my finger, a smile on my face, as I thought of doing it again. I took my bag and left for school.

Since losing my family I was forced to live on my own, making money by working after school as a waiter at a cafe. I lost my mother in an accident when I was 6, making my dad leave me. He thought it was my fault she died, which is true. If only I hadn't been born...

By the time I got to school, anxiety started to take over me. I hoped I wouldn't bump into my bullies today. To my luck, instead of people to hide from, I saw my friends, Armin and Mikasa who seemed to be in a pretty deep conversation.

"Hey, guys!" I said as I approached them with a fake smile.

"Hey, Eren. How are you?" said Armin.

"Fine, as always." I lied "What were you two talking about? It looked important."

Armin smiled. "Well I was actually telling Mikasa about this chemistry meme with the guy who--" he started laughing leaving his sentence unfinished.

I looked at Mikasa who looked like me, both of us starting to laugh too. Armin and his memes.

"Yeah, Armin. I bet it was funny as hell." said Mikasa.

"Well yeah cuz he said "I want H2O and the other one said I want H2O too and he died." !" Said Armin trying to control his laughter.

"Whatever you say, Coconut Boi." I said, patting his head.

The bell rang, meaning we had to go to class. I waved goodbye to my friends as I headed to my first class which was math. Yay, even better than chemistry. Note to sarcasm.

Getting in my seat at the back of the class I felt something being thrown in my direction. Looking, I saw Jean. My beloved bully.

"Hey, faggot! Missed me?" said Jean with a stupid grin on his face.

I stayed silent. That's what I always do. I can't even talk for myself, what a waste I am.

"What's wrong? Didn't your mother teach you how to speak!?" said Jean in an angry tone, kicking my chair.

"Guess I'll have to make you--"

"Hello class!" the teacher interrupted Jean "Sorry for being late. I had some errands to run.

*time skip to the end of the lesson*

I tried getting out of class before Jean or one of his friends could come up to me.

The day hasn't even started and I was already sick of being here, so I decided to skip. I went in the backgyard where can be seen a big cherry tree in which I like to climb. No none can see me from there or talk to me, so it's the only place where I feel safe. Being up there, I get out my sketchbook in which I draw when feeling blue. I've always been into art, it was a way to express myself, a way to pour my feeling on paper like I do on my skin.

I opened the book, looking through all the bloody and depressing drawings, I stopped at a particular one. A drawing of my mom. I miss her...Wish I wouldn't have been alive at all, or at least have died with her.

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It was the day I've been longing for, for a long time. The day my mom and I were supposed to have a picnic together. The sun shone as we were driving to our destination.

As soon as we arrived there, I got eagerly out of the car running with the wind through my hair and the smell of the grass filling my nose and making me feel at safe. My mother came right after me preparing the blanket as well as the food she cooked. We both sat down on the blanket as my mouth started to water just by looking at the food.

"Mom, I love you." I said as I start to eat.

She smiled kindly "I love you too, sweetheart."

"Mom, do you love dad more than me?"

"My love for the both of you is different sweetie and you will realize so later."

"What does that--" I was interrupted by the sound of a gun along with screaming.

A few people ran by screaming and some injured. My mom took me by the arm and told me to get in the car and hide under the seats. I did as told as I waited for mom. I waited and waited until the gun noise was replaced by the sirens.
I decided I'd get out and look for mama, but as soon as I opened the door I was welcomed by her lifeless body.
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I decided that it was time for me to go to class, but as soon as I started moving someone came. I couldn't see exactly their face due to the branches. I moved some from my face so I could see who it was. I looked at a midget with defined abs that could be seen through his shirt. I didn't recognize his beautiful face and his black silky hair, so I kept looking at his muscular arms as he proceed to light up a cigarette.

I was so mesmerized by the view that I forgot I was holding my notebook and  accidentally let it slip my grip.

"Tch. What the fuck is this." he said with his smooth deep voice as he bend himself to pick my notebook up.

I remained in the tree so he couldn't see me.

"How the hell did it land here..." he said while opening it to look for a name, but eventually failed since I did not write it. "Guess I'll have to give it to Shitty Glasses to help me find the owner." were his last words before he left.

I'm so fucked.

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Ｈｅｅ  ｈｅｅ what will happen to Eren and his notebook?
Even if I want to post regularly I know I won't be able to so yeah. Still enjoy  （╹◡╹)✿