Troublemakers

Chapter 29 pt.2

Yunhyeong's POV

After dinner I took a quick shower and wore my boxers and one of Chanwoo's shirts. It was big at me but it made it more comfortable to sleep with.

I walked back inside his room, hearing water. Looks like Chanwoo was taking a shower in his bathroom.

I sighed as I got inside his bed, covering myself.

“Stupid Chanwoo…” I mumbled annoyed as I closed my eyes. Why was he avoiding this subject? Why won't he tell me what's on his mind? 

Why does he must make me feel this frustrated? 

He's my boyfriend, no? This should be his initiate, not mine! 

“I don't get you…” 

The water stopped running. I tried to stay still so he'd think I'm asleep. I was already annoyed because of those stupid thoughts and Chanwoo was annoying me even more. 

“Yunhyeongie…? Are you asleep..?” He asked softly, his fingers brushing my hair. 

I didn't answer. To be honest, I was too much annoyed right now to talk with him.

Everyone gets to be intimate with their partner expect of me. 

A bit of pressure was added to my side and Chanwoo kept brushing my hair, his actions becoming a bit slower. 

It felt nice, but I was really annoyed to react to it. I wanted him to stop. I want him to tell me if he's just playing with me. 

He asked me for a chance in the first place! Why was he…why was he acting now as if he's tired of me? 

“I'm sorry, Yunhyeongie…” Chanwoo said quietly, “I'm probably being a complete idiot to you… But I just…” 

I heard him sigh. He pressed a soft kiss over my forehead and got up. “Sleep well..”

“You're what?” I asked as I grabbed his arm.  

“Yunhyeongie,” Chanwoo said a bit surprised, “I thought you're asleep. Did I wake you? I'm sorry.” 

“You're what, Chanwoo?” I asked him again, more like pleaded. I want to know why he's acting like that.

Am I not good enough? Is he tired of me? 

Chanwoo sighed, sitting back down on the bed. I sat down as well, looking at him. I really want to know his reason. 

“I… I'm sorry, Songie…” Chanwoo took my hand in his, “I probably made you mad at me.” 

“Frustrated too.” I noted. He smiled softly, looking at our hands. 

“God, this is probably so stupid… I just… I don't want you to look back at this moment and feel… regret.” Chanwoo looked at me.

“I was the one who begged you to give him a chance, and I really try to do my best to make you happy. I'm glad you gave me an opportunity to prove myself...you...god, I love you so much. And sometimes I still feel like I don't deserve you. I've done so many horrible things to you, I've been terrible towards you… I just… I'm really sorry, Songie. I want you to get better… But I also want to be that better.”

“Chan… you need to understand that if I want to do such things with you, it means I completely trust you.

I don't care about what you did in the past, I care about what you're doing now, you changed. A lot. You… returned to your old self I loved so much…” 

Chanwoo took my face in his hands, gently brushing his thumbs over my cheeks. “I know, I know… you told me that time that you trust me, but I was worried. I thought it might be too soon and I don't want to rush anything with you. I just love you so much…”