Take off your clothes and lets talk

I fell in love with him once
It wasnt love at first sight but atleast we ended up together right?
I loved everything about him
His clean face
big lips
and his huge personality.
and sometimes his presence made me lose my morality
His kisses took me to heaven and brought me back on my knees
Had me pleading to my pedigrees for sanity
He did drive me insane!
I had utmost affection for almost everything he possessed including him

His hugs were like space flights
They took me to the moon too
He planted cocoons in my tummy
They birthed butterflies everytime he placed his hands on me
Slowly,I was beginning to trust him and I honestly thought it was enough to give it to him
He treated me like a queen
Sent me love memes and I legit did feel like everything was sleek
What did I do to deserve him?
He made me smile countless times
He was my knight

One rainy day
I went to see him
I kissed him
Likewise,he held my waist because he knew what it did to me
He knew it made me weak
I started to leak underneath
I felt the heat
The racing of my heart beat
I felt him turn into a beast
Gasping for air like he was running out of breath
I swear I thought I was becoming the culprit to his death
He didnt die
I paused to let him breath.
And he said to me "baby you know I love you"
I was so drunk by love and I didnt even think it was infatuation
And to him,it was just one of his fuckyouations
I looked deep into his iris
Who could tell he was lying?

With his bedroom eyes
He looked at me and asked me slowly
" Can we please make love?"
I didnt know how to
He knew that
He promised he'd be gentle
He took off my clothes and picked me up
I wasnt ashamed bc he had seen me naked before
He threw me onto the bed
And kissed me softly
He went inside of me
Slowly.
It was painful
I cried with my hands on my mouth
Blood everywhere
But he didnt mind
He took care of everything
And when he was done he kissed my forehead
It was my first time so he obviously wasnt going to ask how it was,I suppose..
Must've felt majestic

He hugged me
And for the first time his touch didnt take me to the moon.
No butterfly
Not even a caterpillar
I knew he was gone when I felt alone and empty in his arms.
I went home and had to pretend nothing happened that day
He didnt text nor call
and when I finally did
He had grown cold

And I knew then that it was my cue to leave
I told him "but we made love"
"Babe that was just fucking"
"All i did was introduce you to that world" he said
But you also said you loved me
"i said a lot of things,meant only a few"
" love isnt part of the list"
Goodbye.
©Katheliah Lesego Nchabeleng