My thoughts are stars, I can't fathom into constellations. So here it is:
Sometimes I ask myself, "How we've gone this so far?" Am I the one to blame? Or it's you coz you're so sweet and acted like everything's alright? I ask you that question and you answered, "There's no one to blame that time." Because time is not right. Because time complicates everything.Because time won't allow us to be together. And after hearing those words, I cried.
I wanted to say goodbye. I wanted to say that things may be fine if we are not like this. I wanted to say that it will be better if we will just forget all our mem'ries. But I can't. Your smile, your laugh, your comfort- it keeps me coming back to you. And let me say, you're one of the reasons why I'm still happy inspite of the pains that I've been through.
Time comes that you already say those three words. Those three words that every girl dreamed to hear from someone special. And I doubted. It's not right. I'm not worth it. Guilt. But this time, I wanna apologize because I need to say "I love you too." It may sound so selfish but I don't know, I can't help it. I just wanna be real though.
Yes, I can suffer. Yes, I'm still fine. Yes, I won't leave you. But I can't promise to stay "forever" if things are still the same. I can't promise to stay if we are still in the wrong time. And if the time comes that I will leave, please understand that I'm just doing the right thing. And I promise, I'll be back. I'll be back if we can really say "Pwede na." If we can now say that time is already right.
