This is about my love story, my first love. People call it puppy love or kind of. My name is raisa, people around me always says that i'm boyish. As i told you before, it's about my love, yeah puppy love.
I've got the best test result on kindergarten so i continued my study at a famous elementary school. I've never looking forward to a boyfriend things, cause i thought i was a little girl that shouldn't have a boyfriend yet.
The story started when i was in 6th grade,it was a break time. My chair-mate talked to her boyfriend, and the other friends too. Just me, anna, (my close friend) and 2 other friends that didn't have a boyfriend. My class was the 'just girl' class, just girl in my class, no boy.
When i was about to vomit seeing my chairmate talked to her boyfie, i went outside and bite my nails, i realized that someone from far saw me for a long time. I thought that because i bit my nails, and it was kind of weird.
The next day, when the bell rang, all of my friends packed their things and said goodbye to the teacher, they were ran outside left me and anna behind. Then, we went outside. I saw a boy that was seeing from far yesterday, he stood in front of my class, and gave me an envelope. I thought 'oh man, whats again?' After that he runaway.
I opened the envelope with anna beside me, it said 'My name is troy, i know you, you're raisa, come to the garden tommorow morning' it was kind of weird. The next morning i came school late, because i didn't want to come to the garden and i didn't want to hurt him, so the solution was, come late.
I saw him again at the stairs, and our eyes met, it was 7 seconds(i didn't count it, anna did) anna stared at me. I froze, keep my mouth shut. He said 'It's okay, i know you were late' i said 'hehe sorry' he said 'no need to be sorry, actually there was nothing to talk about, so you can go... Um..now' he shifted his eyes to floor.
I thought that was a manner. My friend said that he probably like me and i felt it too, i shouldn't be too confidence. From that day, if i saw him i felt my heart beating fast. He always smiled when he caught my eyes. I wasn't smiling but i was smirking, to keep my real feeling hidden that i liked him....
A month passed, that day came, when i was waiting the bus at the shelter alone, i saw him approaching me. He looked like very tired of running, Then he suddenly said 'i like you, do you want to be my girlfriend?' I shocked, I didn't know what to say. I was froze for seconds. Then i answered...
'Um... Actually, i.... Li...' There was a silent for a second, until i said 'sorry troy, i don't, i think its better for us to just be friend' luckily i saw that sentence on tv. I saw his expression change. His seemed disappointed 'that's okay, i got it, i was just reveal my feeling' he gave me a bitter smile. A bus came, i said goodbye to him and left him alone. I felt so guilty to him, i was being so stubborn. from that day i've never seen him around, anna said that he moved to Brisbane. I'm not telling anyone about this until now, but i'm telling this to you, it was my puppy love, so can you keep this as a secret? I'm begging you.
-raisa-
