Gangsalker

9

I was sitting in my room for about an hour or two thinking "go away your ruining everything." holding my head in my hands my feeling for ben have been getting stronger and I feel like its going to ruin are friend ship "hey y/n are you okay?" rusty asked from the other side of the door "come in and I'll tell you." I sighed as my heart raced as he stepped in and sat next to me on my bed "my feelings for the guy I like are getting worse and I fear it end are friend ship and I don't want to lose y.. Him." I trip over my words as my fear filled eyes never meet his "well I can't really help although I wish I could." he said raping his arm around me "but I can tell you my problems." he said smiling at me "sure." I said putting my head on his "the girl I like is so blind about it I fined it cute or I'm the blind one and can't see she likes me." he laughed and it hurt to think about how the boy you like has feeling for a girl you can't even catch the name of. "As much as I live your company I think I need some alone time so I'll be back." I said standing up and grabbing my shoes. "Alright but be safe I care." he smiled to me as I left my room and headed out the door. When I parked no one was around I got out locked my car and trudged through dead leafs "I miss you deeply Kate you and your son didn't deserve any of this." I said laying flower down in front of there grave. I just sat in front of there graves crying for 3 hours before my phone buzzed rusty was calling but I didn't pick up instead I went to my car and drove home. When I opened the door rusty was sitting up the couch in the living room running his hand through his hair and shaking his leg "hey ben." I said taking my shoes of when I went to go put me shoes away I was almost knocked over by ben hugging me "I see what you mean by being worried because you care." he said hugging me tighter "well now I feel bad because instead of a hug I ignored you." I said hugging him back "its okay people express love in many ways you get mad because I made you worried and I get scared because I feel its my fault." he said letting me go "I still feel s.. Did you say love?" I asked after it took me a minute to relies what he said "well yeah your my best friend." he smiled I smiled back even though I hate to admit it that stung "well night ben."I said securing to my room "but it's only like 7." he called out "I don't care."I yelled back as I closed the door and slid down it "why do I like you?" I asked my self "I don't know you tell me why you like him." it was max... Wait it was max!? "what are you doing in my room?"I asked sitting next to him "you hadn't called or come in to work since the incident at the bar." he said hugging me "well to be honest I was scared." I said "of what?" he asked me "I don't really know." I said looking at Ben's hat on my floor and it made me giggle how did I not notice he didn't have his hat on "what's so funny miss giggles?" max said poking my side "rusty left his hate on my floor and I didn't even notice he didn't have it on." a smiled "well its hard to notice obvious thing what your blinded by love." he said "yea..wait what?"I said "it so obvious you like him y/n." I sighed "then why can't he see that?"I asked "he will one day and he's gonna feel dumb not noticing it before but sometimes you need to show them for them to finally see."he said "thanks max maybe I should tell him."I say as my eyes drop to his hat again "well I should head out but I'll call bye y/n."he said walking to the front door I yelled after him "bye max." then I hear the front door close.