Complicated Love // Ziam

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Liam's POV

[unedited]

I heard Zayn's phone ring, knowing that it'll be Perrie or one of his sisters, either one of them.

I watch him pick up his phone and answer the phone call.

I lifted my head off of his shoulder as his smile grew bigger than before.

Perrie.

"I got to take this babe, won't be long"

I sighed in reply and he gave me a peck on the cheek before walking off quickly out the door of our hotel room.

Why does she always have to ruin everything?

I sighed again and fiddle with my fingers, as I hear Zayn's laugh.

Sometimes I wonder what would happen if Perrie didn't exist, would Zayn and I be happy together?

None ruining our cute moments? just like Perrie does?

Sigh.

Everything is so complicated.

Love is complicated.

Our love is complicated.

20 minutes has been up and still, Zayn hasn't come back.

I ran my fingers through my hair and let out a frustrating sigh, negative thoughts and questions flooding through my mind again. .

What if Zayn loves Perrie more than he loves me?

What if he picks her over me?

What if he's with me because he feels sorry for me?

What if everything is just an act and we aren't really together, because Zayn feel sympathy towards me, so he doesn't want to hurt my feelings?

The sound of the door opening interrupted my negative questions and I let it slide to the back of my mind.

I was afraid that Zayn's going to pick Perrie, but who knows maybe he'll pick me. Ego of myself to say that, but you can't help and think like that y'know?

I watch him walk towards me and flopped himself on the bed next to me with a wide smile, his attention at the white ceiling of the hotel instead of me.

I wonder what he is smiling about.?

"Why so happy?" I asked curiously, hoping that it's not Perrie that is causing him to smile like that.

I want him to smile so wide because of me, not Perrie herself.

Finally he turned his gaze to me and still had that smile on his face.

"Ohhh nothing, Perrie told me something" He spoke ever so cheerily.

My heart dropped at how happy he is because of her.

I nodded and laid down on the bed, avoiding his gaze on me. I looked at the ceiling and thought, maybe he does love her more than me.

I felt his arms wrapped around my torso and I flutter my eyes closed, not wanting to cry in font of him. I didn't wanna be a cry baby so I held the tears in and melted into his arms.

His lips were pressed on my cheek and I smiled lightly, feeling loved by the person I love so much, although I have this negative feeling that he doesn't love me.

"Liam? you okay?" He asked softly.

I nodded in reply and didn't speak a word to his question, I wasn't feeling good today.. It seems as if I've been hit by a truck a couple of times, because I was feeling numb and it wasnt the best feeling.

I felt him stroke my hair soothingly, making a soft sigh pass throughout my lips and from that moment on I wanted to cry, I didn't know myself why I am feeling this way..

Maybe because Zayn loves Perrie more than myself?

Maybe because Perrie makes Zayn happier than I do.

I didn't like thinking negatively towards Zayn and I's relationship or even thinking about Zayn loving Perrie more than me. I want him to smile, a smile that reaches his eyes, his eyes twinkling and crinkled because of me.

Is that too much to ask?

I bit the inside of my lip, my eyes still closed Zayn's fingers still stroking my hair. His hums filled the quiet atmosphere of our hotel room, making me relax and the negative thoughts sliding pass my brain and into Narnia or something.

"I love you.." Zayn spoke ever so softly, that I've never heard him speak that way before. He'd always just say it out loud, not gently and meaningful. It made me realise that he does love me, as much as he loves Perrie.

I finally opened my eyes and turned my head to the side to meet Zayn's dark honey eyes that you get lost every time you stare into it, I couldn't seem to escape from his eyes and I knew from that moment on that I was getting lost.

A smile was upon my face, this time it was wide, not a sad smile a happy smile that reaches my eyes.

"I love you" I responded softly, the same voice as Zayn when he said the three words that I love to hear coming from him.

Once again negative questions comes back to my mind and that's when my wide smile kind of drops, but there's still a slight smile upon my face.

I wonder how many times he'd said those words to Perrie.

He tangles our legs together and turned my whole body around to face him, he pulled me closer to him and held me tightly, holding me securely, as if he's afraid that someone would take me away from him and I smiled sweetly at him. Still lost in his eyes, I could see my reflection on his iris.

"You're beautiful and I love you, more than anything in the world. Don't ever forget that"

My heart fluttered at the words for a second, but what about Perrie? I was about to ask him that but I stopped myself, not wanting to ruin the moment.

I blushed, still getting lost into his eyes and I placed my hand on his clothed chest.

"You're beautiful as well and I love you to the moon and back" I spoke truthfully.

He smiled and pecked my lips quickly.

"Forever and always?"

"Forever and always." I repeated, smiling lightly.

I felt his pair of lips on mine seconds later, making me close my eyes and I kissed back almost immediately.

But what about Perrie? Were the question floating throughout my brain.

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Written by @fakezain