{Left Alone}

Chapter 3-Help

"COME ON WAKE UP!"J-hope yelled as he chucked a pillow at my tired face.A groan escaped my lips as I threw the pillow back at him. "Hey man,it's early and I'm sleepy."I said as I yawned quietly.J-hope chuckled and held onto his pillow tightly. "No it isn't early,it's 10:00,we should be up by now."J-hope said as he walked to the side of my bed.I laid there like a slug,barely moving. "Get up grandpa Yoongi."J-hope said as he pulled my arm.

I couldn't help but chuckle a small bit.He pulled me off the bed and stared at me with a bright smile. "I'm up,I'm up!"I said as I forced myself to stand. "There we go,I see that smile,finally it's been a while."J-hope said as he placed his hand on my shoulder.He's right,this is the first time I've smiled in a while. "Are the others awake?"I asked as I trudged to the door,slowly opening it.J-hope shrugged his shoulders and peeled out of the room.

"Let's go find out."I said as I pulled J-hope along with me.We chuckled and banged our fists on each of their doors loudly.After waiting in complete silence,Jin and Jimin came out of their room with aggregated expressions. "When do we ever get to sleep in?"Jimin asked as he rubbed his eyes.Jin yawned loudly and fumbled with the door handle. "Come on,it's only 10:00,get up!"J-hope said as he bardged into Jungkook and V's room.

J-hope yelled for them to wake up loudly.Since RM was the leader,he got his own room,lucky.Jungkook and V sleepily walked out of their room and gave me a dirty look.I sighed and stormed downstairs,to ignore the awkwardness.I sat on the kitchen stool and played with my messy hair.Starting today,no more drinking for me.It'll be hard,but if I want to stay in BTS,I have to stop drinking.

I looked at the staircase to see all six of them rushing down the steps. "What are you making for breakfast today Jin?"V asked as he sat on the couch.Jin fumbled with the kitchen supplies and glared at V. "You know what I'm going to say,you'll have to wait and see for yourself."Jin said with a smile as he turned on the stove.Everyone found their own seats and began talking. "So Yoongi,how did you sleep last night?

RM asked in a rude tone.I shrugged my shoulders and tried to smile. "Well I still feel like I got ran over by a bus,but other than that,I'm alright."I said with a smirk.RM forced a smile,he was still pissed beyond mad.I gripped onto my seat,while breathing heavily.V and Jungkook were the angriest,they wouldn't even pretend to be kind to me. "So,Yoongi,how does it feel to beat up your hyungs huh,must be pretty awful!"Jungkook said in my ear angrily.

I closed my eyes tightly,holding back my anger.V moved to sit beside me,placing his hand on my shoulder. "Why did you drink in the first place,what's wrong!?"V said sounding aggervated.I slammed my fists onto my thighs and stood up,facing V. "HEY,HEY,everyone calm down,we don't want this to happen again!"RM yelled as he scolded us like little kids.My eyes widened furiously,he doesn't tell me what to do. "Yeah,well,if you don't want this to happen again,maybe you should stop fucking bringing this conversation up!!"I yelled as I threw my hands in the air.

RM gritted his teeth,and looked down to the floor.Jin peeked in at us,like a creeper,and glared at me while he was holding a spatula. "Ok grumps,food is ready,sit."Jin said as he pointed to the seats with his spatula.We all listened,since he was the oldest,and sat down in our seats,ignoring each other.Jin walked over with a huge stack of pancakes,making me forget about the others.He handed us each a plate and fork,waiting for us to try his food.

"Wowww, Jin,this is really good!"Jhope said with his cheeky smile.I couldn't help but smile to see how excited Jhope was about food.I placed a pancake on my plate and slowly began to eat.During breakfast,no words were spoken,just silence. "Ok guys,it's 10:35,we should leave soon."RM said as he glided to the kitchen with his plate.I watched as the others followed quickly,leaving me all alone.I sighed heavily and threw my plate onto the floor,watching it shatter into pieces.

I ran upstairs and locked myself in the bedroom.My legs gave out,I was still very,weak.My back slid down onto the door slowly,making me wince.I heard footsteps coming up the stairs.I rolled my eyes and kept my hands onto my face. "Yoongi,what's wrong,let me in."Jhope said nervously.I ignored him and exhaled deeply,watching my fingers tremble. "YOONGI,please,open the door,we will not be mad."RM said as he jiggled on the door handle.

I clenched my jaw and stood up,feeling warm tears fall down my red cheeks.I slowly unlocked the door,and peeked my head out.They all backed away once they seen me crying. "Y-yoongi,are,are you still coming with us?"Jimin asked as he tried to walk inside the doorway.I pushed him aggressively,watching him fall to the ground hard. "No,no,I'm not,go without me!"I said as more tears fell,making me more and more prone to weakness.

Jimin stood up and stared at me in shock.I observed as anger grew on his face.He pushed open the door and glared at me,without blinking.I heard Jhope on the back,squealing like a small puppy,he was scared. "Please,stop,guys?"Jungkook said as he tried to step closer to me.Jimin clenched his fists together,and rolled his eyes,ignoring Jungkook. "I'm sick of this shit,go ahead,stay here,but don't expect us to be all friendly to you when we get back!!"Jimin yelled as he slammed the door in my face.

I heard all of them stomp down the stairs,except for one person.I slowly watched Jhope open the door,giving me a sad look on his face. "Yoongi,please,why won't you come?"Jhope asked as he placed his hand on my shoulder.I flinched suddenly,and backed away.We were staring into each other's eyes,Mine held pain,his held confusion. "Please,Hoseok,leave."I whispered as I sat down on my bed.He sighed sadly and left,leaving the door wide open.

Once I heard them all leave,I threw myself off of the bed and stumbled to the shower,I need to clear my fucking mind.I slowly turned on the shower water and watched the steam rise.I closed the door,and slowly began to undress.My whole body was weak,everything hurt.Once I was undressed,I flipped my hair to one side and stepped into the shower.Millions of hot water droplets fell perfectly onto my skin,making me shiver.I placed my hands onto the back of my head and kept my eyes closed.

I can't help it,why can't they understand?I want to still be with them,I want to continue making music,I want to be perfectly happy,I want to visit different countries still,but this problem was holding me back from all of that.Suddenly I opened my eyes and loudly screamed,loud enough to be heard from outside.I screamed until my face was red,until I was dizzy,and couldn't see.Being alone didn't scare me,it was the fact that nobody would love me,accept me.

I feel,unloved sometimes,yet I act like that doesn't bother me,it does,slowly.After washing my hair and body,I turned the water off quickly and wrapped a towel tightly around my waist.My hair was a blonde shaggy mess,I didn't feel like brushing it.I shuffled slowly into my room and got dressed into sweatpants and a sweatshirt.Once I got dressed,I flopped onto my bed and scrolled through my phone,looking at the memories me and the hyungs made.

I couldn't help but shed a few tears,I swear I will change,I will.Drinking will not get the best of me,I'm stronger than that.I huffed and covered up in my sheets,maybe a rest will help.I turned the lights off and fell asleep with the thought of me getting better stuck in my mind.

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