- "Sex, drugs, and rock n' roll, man"
The year was 1980. Liv was a L.A. high school graduate who turned down her future for music. Her band split up and she was looking out for a unique one who was looking for a guitar player. She was ready a...
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February 10th, 1988
~liv new year, new mötley. i think we can all agree as a band that nikki's overdose was scary as shit. especially for me. i feel like that was a definite wake up call for us to get our shit together. ever since then, doc has been really serious about getting us sober. our first day was right after new years, and we would go to rehab as a group together.
it's been rough trust me. all i wanna do is give up and have a drink and some blow, and i can't imagine how the other boys are feeling. nikki called me this morning to come over before our session.
i still have been hesitant around him even though i do everything i can to help. he's had a rough life. the relationship with his parents, when he ran away to la and was basically homeless, and he's tried his hardest to make it where he is today, even though he is at his lowest right now.
ever since i met nikki, he's always been cocky in a way, but at the same time he was a shy kid and hid behind his hair a lot. he had a really hard time trusting people, especially tommy, vince, and i at first because of his past. it's the least i could do to help him. he's just lost.
i pull up to his place and make my way to the door. before i can knock, he opened it right away like he was watching for me to arrive. "hey." i smile up at him as he leads me inside to his room. at least the house is cleaner than usual.
"so how's everything going?" he flops down on the bed to rest against the headboard while i sit down as well. "it's been hard, but i think i can do this." he looks down as he starts playing with his hands.
"um i just wanted to talk to you, and i know we really haven't gotten to do that alone lately." i notice his nervousness as i grab a pillow and rest my head on it, while laying on my stomach across from him. "yea of course."
"well i know for a while now i've been uh,"
"a dick?" i cut him off with a smirk and that's the first time i've made him chuckle in a long time.
"yea that. and i just wanted to say i'm so sorry for everything. look, i never meant to hurt you liv, really. i was just in a fucking dark place, and to be honest all that was on my mind was the drugs." i still sit quiet as i just watch him carefully.
i don't know if i can trust him yet. i mean hell, i've given him so many chances, but the thing was i know he was in a dark time. i guess i can be understanding, even though that really isn't my character.
"but i know you're the only person that gets me. half the shit i've told you about myself i would never tell even tommy. and i realized that now that i'm working on staying sober, maybe we can start over." he had my hands in his while his eyes never left my gaze.
