everything i wanted

the show I

you wake up, day of the concert. you bought the floor tickets, you planned your outfit months beforehand & prepared for months to make sure it'd was to be perfect.

you get ready by starting w/ basic skin/self care & continue onto your makeup. you perfect every inch of your face, for all the pictures you'll be taking. you move onto your hair straightening it & making sure it's soft, & putting it in a messy half up half down bun. it's finally time to get dressed, you put on the months ahead preplanned outfit & take pictures.

you grab your bad & go on your way to the show showing up early before lines form, but as always they're already filed up groups of girls wearing neon merch & mixtures of girls wearing mom jeans & camo joggers, you hear z100 outside playing music & watching everyone talking to each other as you had cake alone. the smell of fast food & sweat. people all around you but you don't seem to feel them. all you feel is how billie is in the building you're waiting to get into & how amazing the night will be.

-time skip-

after hours security starts to swarm letting the general admission in & you don't hesitate to run to the very front of the stage, the crowd grows more & more over time. getting overwhelming but you prepared for this anyways. time goes on as the whole auditorium is filled & packed & you can't see a single empty seat. the lights go out. & then you here denzel open the show. the crowd jumps & screams & goes wild. the whole time it was constant motion. soon his segment of the show ends & time goes by while the stage is getting ready. after 30 minutes of the stage being set up the whole room yells "billie billie billie" & the room goes black.

everyone screaming,phone screens being the only visible thing in sight but then, white. white surrounds you w/ screams of her name & i love you(s) but as she stands on stage, still looking at the crowds. she jumps, the bass of bad guy shakes the room along w/ everyone else jumping. yellow, black & white lights dim & turn deep red setting the room an entire other mood. billies now right in front of the crowd hands grabbing out to her but she's not in reach but she's still so close. she sings "i like when you get mad, i guess i'm pretty glad.. that you're alone" looking right into your eyes, & only you. she smirks seeing how she caught your attention & stands up & walks away. you're breathless.

-time skip-

-your pov-
the show was more than everything, you ran though people to merch lines & got out w/ no money left. you're outside walking to your car to drive home & sleep feeling restless. you walk right up to the entrance to the parking garage that was a street down so leaving wouldn't be a struggle. but before you could make your way to your car you hear a laugh, a laugh you've heard millions of times followed by "bro where the fuuuuck is my fiesta bag of takis" you stop dead in your tracks & slowly turn around & see a whole bus w what looks like 10 people around it & 7 more inside you walk slowly towards it then hear "billie be quiet". *MAGGIE* you think to yourself listening to the conversation you've made it almost half way to the bus & you see billie, yourself eilish walk off the bus with a bag of takis & some in the other hand smiling. "BIL" you yell & start walking in a faster pace.

-billies pov-
feeling the most tired & overran after a show, still feeling the hype from crowds. but y/n is still in your head, you didn't even know their name. you only saw their face, you wish you knew their name so that you could scr- "bil" finneas said "yea" , "we're all hungry so we need to pack quicker so we can leave on time for the next show so we're taking the bus down the street to pack" he replies. you nod & grab your now taken off chains & fix the messed up space buns. you guys take the bus near a parking garage & you search for the bag of takis you threw at denzel, yelling "PUSSY BOY". "bro where the fuuuuckk is my fiesta bag of takis" , "billie be quiet" your mom says handing them to you. you walk of the bus for fresh air you smile while holding the taki bag & then you hear a voice yell your name "BIL" you turn thinking it's someone on the team & you see that face, the face, the one you fell in a trance w/.

-your pov-
billie turns around w/ a "no big deal" kind of look but it soon turns to a stunned blushing face, then a smirk. followed by "AYE MAMAS" in a genuine voice of excitement "how you been?" she asks "oh- i'm good, i just couldn't believe i caught the whole bus here" i reply lowkey shocked by how she's just so welcoming, but it feels so good. "yea, were just packing up here for a faster leave, the teams hungry" she replied. but before you could muster up words she said "you want a picture? something signed? AYE FINN GET ME A MERCH HOODIE FOR THIS GIRL" she yells "oh no it's oka-" , "nah ma we got plenty left of the bus" she rambles over you. finneas runs up w/ a bright yellow oversized hoodie, "only hoodie i could find was yours". she grabs it "thanks finn" she turns to you holding it out, you hesitate to take it & she looks you in the eyes & says "take my gift". you slowly take it still a little hesitant because it's hers. "anyways who's the friend bil?" finn asks her, "she came to the show, front row" she says in a proudly tone. "yo for real? dope! did you enjoy it?" he asks you "oh duh, it's was probably the best i've been to, the crowd was the best i've been in" you excitingly explain. billie licks her lips & smiles "so you've been to multiple?" she asks. "yea, this is my 3rd, i went to the 'where's my mind' & '1 by 1' tour stops" you reply, "DAAAAAmmmmn how have i not seen you before what the fuuck" she says loudly in awe looking at finneas in shock. "ha, not sure but i'm glad to meet you now than never" you say, "yea" she chuckles "me too" changing her tone of voice to semi seductive. making you blush...

this is my first fanfic so sorry if it's shit but here's the first peice, i plan on writing more & it gets deeper so... if you know what i mean & that's the trigger warning for this, so if you read this & get offended i'm very sorry. it's not intended like that but i hope you enjoy this first piece