HER
I was awaken by the cold breeze of December. What a good day to start, right? Lost for words, I stood up from my bed and straightly went to the veranda. Feeling the rays of the sun through my skin, still it is not enough to feel warm. I was pre-occupied. I'm a mess right now.
ring...ring...ring...
I didn't mind to look at the caller id and right away I swept my finger to the screen of my phone to answer the call.
" Hello?"
" Lara, I've been calling you for ages. Where the heck are you?" Right, nanay alert! My protective bestfriend, but don't get me wrong coz' I love her.
" Chill bitch! I'm in the condo right now. So, what's the matter?"
" We have to talk later. There is a ball that we are invited which is a masquerade ball to be specific." Wth. She knows that I'm not yet in the mood to face everyone.
" I'm not in the mood, Iya." Yeaaaa. Iya Montes, my ever supportive and protective bestfriend. I must rephrase it. She's my sister. Sister for life! We are together since we were 4, I think. A true sister indeed.
" But you have to go and you must go! The press is wondering why are you out of the limelight for a week already." Oooooopssss. I should do her orders already. She might get mad and I don't want that to happen. She's all that I've got.
" Okay. I will come just please don't leave me, k?" Clingy ryt?
" Ofcourse te. You know me, I keep my promises. See you later dear. Smile okay, I always got your back." Iya, the sweetest.
" Thank you te. I have to groom myself already. See you later! I love you byeeee."
" I love you too byeeee!"
I looked at my reflection in the mirror and believe me I really look like a mess. Swollen eyes, red cheeks and messy hair.
Ask me why. One of our bestfriend died a week ago, Klarisse Ocampo. She is one of my close friend next to Iya. I am really affected by her death because I am with her that time. She was sick and I blame myself for not knowing it.
Flashback
I am with Klarisse right now, shopping. Iya is not around because she has a taping.
" Te, malapit ka ng mag-20 lady ka na talaga. Samantalang ako teen pa rin." Nothing new. Klarisse is still Klarisse. A crazy kiddo and a joyful one. That's why you wouldn't thought that she is sick.
" Kla, it is not a big deal tho. We are still the same. Nothing will change. Me, you and Iya we are forever."
" Tama forvever! Take care always, the two you. I am alaways by your side. I love you te!" Weird. Kla is not the clingy type of friend.
" I love you too!"
We were shopping, laughing, and chatting for like 7 hours.
Not minding the people around us that are looking at us intently. Ofcourse they will, we are celebrities. While we are having fun, I observed that she is holding her chest and she's breathing fast.
" Kla, are you okay?" As I said those words she clinged herself to me. She is really hyperventilating for pete's sake! She is close to collapsing. I immidiately dialled her mom's number. Not knowing what to say.
" Tita... tita... si Klarisse po!" After I said those words to tita I guided Klarisse to my car and rushed her to the nearest hospital. I texted tita the address. We were rushing her to the ER and I was holding her hands. We are already near to the ER when I felt that her grip loosen. I was crying really hard while waiting for the doctor to come out. I heard the door opened and the next thing I knew, I already broke down because of what the doctor said.
" I'm sorry. I'm really sorry. She's gone."
I confronted tita about what happened and she said that Klarisse was diagnosed with a heart disease and she don't want other people to know about it.
End of Flashback
Everything is too fast. I never thought that we will struggle from that kind of dilemma. Every night, it haunts me. I always cry and cry until I get myself to sleep. I miss her, I miss Klarisse. If I could just turn back time, but I can't. One thing that I realized is that I need to seize every moment in my life because you'll never know what will happen next. Stop with this dramas, I have a taping pala today. I quickly went to my bathroom to take a bath and to groom myself. I look at my reflection again, damn I'm really a mess. I need to put some make-up so that people won't notice that I'm still miserable. I know that I'm not the only one who's suffering that's why I need to get back to my senses and live my life.
