The Salvatore Sister • Ava Rose Salvatore

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The Rager
Season 4 Episode 3

It's been two weeks since Nik and I left Mystic Falls. We're in Bora Bora and it feels like things have gone back to the way they were before everything.  I'm loving it here. The ocean is like a bright and crispy blue. Everything is just refreshing and new. The inside of the resort is smaller than my liking but it works just fine. It's been a pure bliss being here with Nik.

I've been trying to piece together of what's real and what isn't to see how long Klaus was in my head but I don't got much because the pieces together to fit correctly. The only thing I got was that I thought I was in the mansion tied up but turns out I was in the penthouse laying on my bed. Also, that I didn't rip through the ropes I was "supposedly" tied up with which explains why I didn't find the daggers in the air vent because Klaus was in my head and he didn't know I hid it there.

I called Kol and apologized for trying to kill him. I don't know how he managed to clean up the mess I made. I went to so many clubs when I was in Florida, New York, San Francisco, Los Angelos, and Las Vegas that I lost count. The only thing I can remember is every last person I killed in every club. I was just murdering anyone who was nearby. I killed everyone at that racetrack in Miami, Florida. More than half the people in the club in New York. Before I turned it off I had only killed 636 people. Its pretty low for a vampire who is 166 years old. Now my number of kills is past 1,500. Hundreds and hundreds of people. I can still remember all of their faces. I didn't even sleep during those 10 days. I've stayed awake a lot longer than 10 days which made it easier but I spent every last day killing anyone I wanted and now I'm going to spend the rest of eternity remembering every last face. Klaus and I haven't talked about those 10 days. He hasn't brought it up and neither have I.

I talked to my brothers. Why did I go there to speak with them after everything? Because needed to get the daggers and to see if they know where my mother's journals were at but turns out she didn't have any or at least that what Damon says. Also because I'm stupid, and I forgive too easily, and because they're my family. They're are the only valid excuses I got.

If Damon finds out that I was the one who killed Dominic and that he didn't die in battle, I don't what would happen. Let me put it into easier words... he was more torn up about Dominic's death than he was over our mother's and that says a lot. No one knew that I killed Dominic. Literally no one.. well now Klaus does. I was newly turned and had no control, zero. I had barely managed to not kill my father while I compelled him and then I ran into Dominic and he pissed me off and I accidentally killed him. I left him in the middle of the woods... alive. Then I came back to save him because I felt so bad for Damon because I knew they were friends but then he wasn't there. I snooped around town and I found out that he did die. I proceeded to compel Dominic's parents that he died in battle because he was supposed to leave the next day to battle. That's how Damon still thinks Dom died in battle. I only did it to protect myself from Damon virtually hating me for forever. That's why I still haven't told him because Damon and I have a habit of dragging things out longer than we should. He was pretty upset when he found out I was married to Nik imagine if he finds out that I killed his best friend. That won't end well at all.

All of my secrets always seem to always have Dominic in it. I thought it would be hard to talk to Nik about him but it easier than I had expected. Nik did tell me about that Aurora chick he dated a thousand years ago and she broke his heart. I met an Aurora once and she was a total bitch.

While we're on the topic of my husband, we got my rings back from under the pier. Right now we're laying in bed naked with bed sheets covering us. It's very early in the morning. The sun is barely rising. Neither of us is usually awake this early. The curtains are open and we can see the ocean.