The Sound Of A Thousand Screams

3 Mistake

Chapter 3
{Till They Wake}
Mistake
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{WARNING}
Self harm at the very beginning of the chapter, if it disturbs you, skip to 'Starscream sighed in frustration' or skip the chapter entirely since it barely proceeds with the story.

Stay safe.

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Starscream walked into the wash racks.
Why was he here again?
Because he just has to...Just...a little.
The lights were dim and no one was around.
Starscream stood looking at his reflection, his gaze fell into his wrists.

He just had to, just a little...

He slowly placed a clawed digit on his right wrist before slashing it in one swift motion.
Energon started flowing down his now cut wrist, the cut wasn't too deep.
Just deep enough to draw Energon.

Besides, it wasn't like he wanted someone to notice.
He just needed this.

Starscream had started this ever since everyone he cared for had died but now it became a habit.
Something he had to do to calm his nerves or when he messes things up.

So why was he doing this when he isn't feeling like that at all? He hadn't messed up and he hadn't been feeling nervous so why is he doing this?

Maybe Starscream just loves the sensation even though he knew it was wrong.

Starscream stopped and started cleaning his wrists.
There were at least five or seven cuts on his wrist now.

Starscream turned to leave and headed towards the door until he realized who was standing at the doorway.

"...how long were you standing there...?"
Starscream said, almost a whisper.

The mech took a step forward with a small frown on his face.
"Long enough to see..."
He pointed at Starscream's cut up wrist.
"...that"

Starscream sighed in frustration, walking towards the mech.

" 'Screamer, You know what you're doing it wrong...right?"
He tilted his helm to the side.

"Yeah I know, Knockout..."
Starscream rubbed the back of his audial sensor.

The both of them stood in the wash racks, silent.

"You can tell me what's wrong if you want to..."
Knockout said after a while, watching Starscream for any reaction.

Starscream shook his helm.
"No, I'll be fine. Just...don't tell any bot about this, okay?"

Knockout narrowed his optics.
"You know I can't do that, right? I have to tell Megatron about it, it's what I'm supposed to do."

Starscream crossed his servos and huffed, Knockout looked down.
"You know, Star...When Breakdown died...I was quite upset."

Something inside Starscream snapped when he heard Breakdown's designation, Starscream knew right away it was guilt. He always knew he felt guilty about Breakdown's death, He felt like if he had stayed on the Nemesis than Breakdown would've lived.

Starscream shook his helm and stared down with complete anger.
"Well maybe if you were there then maybe he'd still be alive"
Starscream said accidentally out loud, making it seem like he meant that to Knockout when in reality he was talking to himself.

Starscream froze realizing what it had sounded like and risked a glance at Knockout's face, His spark dropped.

Knockout's expression was blank, as if someone had knocked him out cold.
At the corner of Knockout's optics were tears, his mouth was slightly agape.

Starscream stared at him with utter guilt but nonetheless pushed him aside and left.

He stopped when he entered the hallway, not looking back at Knockout still in the wash racks.
"I'm sorry"
He muttered, loud enough to hear before walking towards the Control Deck, as Megatron had ordered, with a slightly fast pace.

As Starscream left Knockout lowered his helm, looking down at his servos before wiping away his tears.

Knockout was about to leave until he saw Soundwave standing at the door.
"You heard, didn't you?"
Knockout said.

Soundwave silently nodded, letting Knockout sigh.
"Should I report to you or Megatron?"

Soundwave looked down himself and then back at Knockout.

Knockout nodded and walked back towards the Med-Bay with Soundwave behind.

Entering the Med-Bay, Soundwave and Knockout discussed about what had happen before they realized something moving.

They both stared at where they thought they saw movement before realizing something.

Knockout commed their commander with wide optics set upon what he was looking at.
"Lord Megatron?"

.:: What is it, Knockout? I'm quite...busy::.

Knockout continued to stare, in disbelief.

How?

.:: Knockout?::.

"Lord Megatron...?"

.:: What?::.

"They're back online"

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Again! I'm rushing things!
UGH!
Well, I'd like to say that Everyone's back story is actually originally from another series I wanna make called StarStruck.
Just don't add the Yandere things and there you go! Everyone's backstory!
Anyways!
Sorry for this short chapter!
I've been going through some shit lately, but it'll get better soon.
I hope.
Hope you enjoyed!
Stay tuned for the next chapter!
761 Words!