The perks of being in Love

Pop's Chocolate

  This story surrounds around four people Sarah, Chico, Sir Athar and me.
I had always enjoyed talking with sir Athar, he had a different accent from others and may be that was why i was attracted so much to him. We always had had some interesting discussions like the one we had in class about ego previous day. In the evening, sir Athar would visit the back side lawn of the school where there flew a small but beautiful lake. He had this novel by Ravinder Singh, 'I too had a love story', which he would read sitting by the side of the lake. It was monday evening when i saw him sitting on that bench by the side of the lake, reading that novel. I went to him and we had some random chat.
   "How about Love? Why do people fall for someone they don't even expect?"
I asked him an unexpected question pointing towards his novel. I actually was more like expecting something for myself.  He would rarely talk about love but I really wanted to know his stance of Love.
    "We fall in love with the most unexpected person at the most unexpected  time", He gently said closing his book.
      "Love is the most unpredicted of all emotions and feelings God has blessed us with.Love never surrounds around some specific group of humans, Love is for all. Love has the depth of oceans, Love has the calm of deserts. Love can be someone's reason of living, Love can be someone's worst nightmare. Yes, Love indeed is the most unpredicted feeling of humans", he added.
     "You have always impressed me by your cool gestures and your matchless way of saying and understanding things. Despite being so veteran, why is that the people don't always seem praising  you?"
        I finally asked him something I  had always tried to know.
     "People spend too much time finding other people to blame, too much energy finding excuses for not being what they are capable of being. People these days are focused so much on someone else's life instead of their own. People notice everything, even the slightest change in your behaviour.No matter how good a person you are, somebody’s out here making you look horrible. don’t let it bother you, continue your growth. May be saying bad of me amuses them and it  is the only thing  they are good at".
       Expecting me being satisfied with his reply, he left for some appointment. May be we would discuss this some other day, he said.
    Just when sir Athar left i received a text from Chico, saying he had been waiting for me for some while in 'Pop's Chocolate. I rushed to him.
    Pop's Chocolate was a small food point just in the middle of the town. It was our favourite place to spend our evenings in.
      "Sometimes having coffee with your friend is the best therapy you need".
      I am planning on something, I told Chico who was staring his coffee mug, making some serious angry face.
      "I had been here for some while", Chico was angry on why had i always been late.
  "Look, Chico! It was sir Athar, I had to stay. He has always been kind to me and today we had some serious talk.
Now stop being angry and correct that ugly face you always make."
  See Chico We all need someone who’d listen to us without making any judgments. I hope we  should all try to reach out to someone  if we know and feel that they are going through something.I don’t need sympathy, I  don’t need someone to do anything for me, Sometimes i just want someone to be there, just a solid friend. we all need someone to lean on and listen to us, and you Chico!, you have been always there for me.
      I tried to emotionally blackmail him and it actually worked.
     He grabed my hand and said, "If I were  in charge of how you feel I would always choose happiness for you jug!"
    I cannot stay alive with loving Sarah so much and her being out there knowing nothing about how someone feels for her, how his best friend feels for her, how jugghead feels for her. Chico I am planning on giving up on her. We should learn to let go, Not everyone in our life is meant to stay. I should learn to let her go.
   I told Chico what was I planning on.
Chico always would know a way out, he would give me reasons on what way to go. That day was not any different too, he tried every bit of it to convince me not give up on her.
        " We are all in love with somebody, but sadly most of us fear to confess. The only problem here is the Fear, and we fear from losing someone we care about, we have this fear that is consistently stoping us from confessing , from expressing  our feelings for someone.
Hate is not the first enemy of love, Fear is. It destroys our ability to trust, to trust in our ownself. We should stop being scared, why so much fear when we already love someone  more than anything.
        "Let go off your fear and confess to her, confess to her that she is more than just a friend to you, tell her how you feel for her. Believe me no one is gonna do it for you. In the end we only regret the things we didn't do. No one ignores the effort of a person who tries to keep in touch, its not all the time someone truly cares. It might take a year, it might take a day, but what’s meant to be ours will always find it’s way".
      Chico's  words were so convincing. I thought for a while, " Lonliness has followed me my whole life, there is no escape. I took this decision that moment that I would try to convince her to stay,
        I love her if she stays
        I love her if she doesn't
        That will never change for me